the world that revolves around myself

わがまま-wagamama-selfish

when i self-reflect, that's what i can conclude for a general description of me

plausibly correct in a sense... i can't think of others than what matters with myself. i could careless of anything else, they just unrelated, aren't they? why do i think so, here's the proof:

• things that occupies my mind are none other but about myself, what i like-drama/manga/etc, what i wear, what i say, what i should do next, the wrong things i had done intentionally/unintentionally, my uncertain future, anything i could think of related to me
• when i converse with others, i can't find other topics but about myself, my stuff, my experience, my everything
• stuffs in my blog are nothing but the same things as above
• i tend to use the pronoun 'I' in writings
• i can hardly imagine things that are running on others' mind. let alone putting myself in their shoes
• seldom i think of others when using/eating/consuming something
• you ask me how others are doing? only if i just heard it, then i knew, seldom i bother to know unless they are of importance to me or so dear to me or interesting to me (see, there's always 'me' even when it's regarding others)

somehow, i realized, that's so selfish of me. despite having learned since small the virtues of prioritizing others above yourself. what they call it in english, yeah, altruism. guess i have to be more kind from now onwards, or just more caring towards others. there is still so far from a being a good muslimah for me. so much rooms for improvements. jyaa, ganbarou~~