Wednesday, September 30, 2009

日本語の勉強?今?

姉から言われたんだ、もう日本語で書かないの?まあ、もう久しぶりに日本語を使うから、ちょっと変になるかも。前と同じかなあ、来週ちょっと日本語のテストがあるわけで、今、練習します~~

今、休み中だけど、もうすぐ終わりなぁ。私たちは長い休みはなかなかないから、今回の2週間の休みは一番長いのも言える。JADの学生確かに大変だ。それ でも、課題とかしゅくだいなんてないから、とても幸せです~~先生、ありがとう!!この休みを満喫するつもりだけど、やっぱり、実にやりたいことはあまり ないなぁ。

それで、うちでごろごろしたり、ドラマを観たり、いろいろ食べたりしているばかりになるわけだ。たまに、友達と会えると本当にうれしい。でも、今運転免許があれば もっと良いな、もっと友達が会いたいから。そういっても、それがあっても、親に車を一人で運転させられるわけない。まぁ、いいか。

さっきもう言ったけど、テストのために、日本語の練習をしたいけど、結局、いつも`聞き取り´の練習になるじゃん。^_^ へへへ、観たドラマがもういっ ぱいいっぱいになった。さらに、聴く歌も間違えなくずっと日本の歌~~ 今、とても気に入るのは、私のまわりのみんなさんがもう知っているかもしれない、 それはFLUMPOOLだ!仕方ないなぁ、隆太くんの声は素敵だし、全員のメンバーもかっこいいし、好きにならないわけがない。それに、FLUMPOOL のカズキ君のおかげで、私は毎日日本語の勉強もできるわ。彼は確かに面白い人だね、毎日彼らのブログを読むと、絶対に笑うようになる。みんなさん、ときには、カズキくんのブログを読んでみたらどうだ。

今日こそ、またFLUMPOOLで、日本語の勉強になった~。この間、彼らの新曲「フレイム」を聴いて、すぐ大好きになったけど、やっぱり聞き取れなかっ た。今日、たま
たまその曲の歌詞を見つけたんだ!!それでも、その歌詞も私には分かりにくいなぁ。新しい言葉だらけ。 これは本当にいい曲だからこそ、絶対にこの曲の意味を完全に知りたい!誰か翻訳してくれない??

隆太くん、どうやってそんなに素敵で難しい歌詞ができるの。。。


「フレイム」 by flumpool

舞い上がる花 アスファルト叩く向かい風吹く坂道 上ってく
破れた靴を気にしないように 新しい景色だけを見据えている

走った分だけ 磨いた分だけ すべて報われるわけじゃない
それでも時々見える希望(ひかり)に 心奪われて また立ちあがって 歩き出す

指で創ったフレイムを覗きこめば
遠くで手を振る 真っ白な僕がいる
こんな風に生きてんだって たったひとつ
光る瞳で Yesと答えたい
自分で良かったと思える瞬間を追いかけて歩く
生きてゆくよ

背中を押され 聞こえるは愚痴で 通り雨を恨むような しかめ面で
安物のシャツ 破れば古着に見えるとつぶやく背中泣いている

誰もが何かを決める時に よぎる苦い思い出は
これから出会う宝の価値を測るためにある
掴み取るものの愛しさを

今がすべてで現在(いま)がすべてじゃないと
逃げたり慰めたりしながら進んで
花びらが舞う風の中僕は
ひとつ ひとつと 足跡を残してゆく
せつなさや虚しさの瓦礫の中
もがきながら 希望(ひかり)探している

孤独な旅路は 坂を登る途中 ・・・それこそ夢

指で創ったフレイムを覗きこめば
遠くで手を振る 真っ白な僕がいる
くたびれたリュックは空っぽのまま
それでも微笑(わら)って Yesと答えたい
自分で良かったと思える瞬間
この世に出会えて良かったという瞬間
自分で良かったと叫びたい瞬間を追いかけて歩く

生きてゆくよ


残念ながら、こっちで「フレイム」のPVを置くつもりだけど、もうyoutubeでそのビデオはなくなった。

P.S:やっぱり、今回のブログは1時間すぎもかかった。

Saturday, September 26, 2009

which has the slower rate? this internet speed or me writing blog entry

indeed, i tend to leave the entries to this blog unfinished. so, it's not like i'm lazy to update anything, but truly it can be hard to complete one whole post.... it can take much of my precious times just to write a single one... talking about having insufficient time to complete my homeworks or whatever, here i go wasting time just to express my thoughts that nobody could even care less...

nevertheless, it aids me to keep in touch with my sanity. it could be bad if i just leave everything bottled up inside....

that explains why this place has become such a collection those melancholic pieces of myself which i could also considered as junks. nonetheless, i could take the chance to at least practice my lousy english here, as i'm afraid it's gradually rusting away due to the over exposure on nihongo alone, let it be academically or the entertainment purpose which takes up most of my days away.

so, back again to what infuriates me for all day long. it's none other than this internet which speed can make me break my fuse. certainly, what other reason do i use this lovely notebook but to feed my obsession which includes streaming videos and downloading dorama etc. so, u got it, there's no way such a slow internet would please me. urrgghh. not only that, it's not even stable that it often goes on and off, interrupting everything i'm doing at the moment.

for example, even for a less than 2 minute video such as the following, i dun know how long it was to just wait b4 it fully load, but then it got stuck an i have to refresh again so it just prolonged my waiting. btw, i just discovered them and i took a quick liking to this band. easy to the ear i would say. though not as much as when i have my first impression on flumpool, they can easily sneak in into my favourites sooner or later. in fact, they can be considered as flumpool's junior as they just debuted under the same label as flumpool. if someone can make my wish come true, i really would like to watch these guys perform at budoukan next month. this band, Weaver will also perform as the performing act for their senior. seems very exciting to me but i guess dreams are mostly left as dreams ka naa..



oh yeah, despite being in the middle of raya season, i'm here at home lazing around. it's not as if i could go anywhere such as my friends house as i please, i still don't get hold of my license and even if i already had it in my hand, i hardly dare to actually drive or i am allowed to do so.

Friday, September 25, 2009

am taking things for granted (a melancholic post amidst the effervescence of eid)

um, most of the things felt so dull and plain boring

so, does this matches what people say by taking things for granted?

yes, i do have my family
my friends
a place i can call home
my bed i could somehow comfortably lie on
lots of food i'd just love to gobble on
passing on events i could consider my pieces of my life's memories

what else could i ask for?

but still, it all felt superficial

hmmm, indeed humans are such greedy creatures topped up with envy, lusting for more that are beyond reach

coz it just seems that grass is always greener on the other side

ka na?

p/s: recently i've been having dreams in which i could remember some people i know personally have been appearing, it made me laugh but somehow puzzled coz it's not a usual thing that i could even recall what i dreamt.... could it probably be that they actually held much importance to me? i don't think they have even a second to think about my little existence in their life though...... just exactly why do i took all the trouble thinking what others are thinking anyway? is that even needed? should i bother? i could care less what others are up to but then what is it that i really long for in the first place?

if people are in fear when left in the unknown,

yes, i'm in fear

Monday, September 7, 2009

honestly i don't want to do it

it's just like what's stated above...

it's truly difficult to do things in which you don't have heart or even a sliver of interest

though it's said 'one man with commitment is better than thousand with interest' (i saw this quote at my school corridor), it's undeniable that in the absence of interest, if not impossible, it's nearly impossible to possess the slightest commitment in doing anything even if you are ought to.

and now, the matter in question is currently the assignment i got for my 'Malaysian Studies'. for dozens of times, i've tried to not think that it is a boring subject or anything near it. but in the end, when i'm assigned a work for it, it felt like such an unwanted heavy burden dumped onto me.

now, i'm abhorring it. the whole stuff i'm facing in order to complete it.

now i feel, the malaysia constitution is a nuisance. a bother in my life.

i guess, i just came to hate this.


please, everyone knows hate is not a good thing, right? so, don't go make me hate you, history.

where has all the fun go in learning this subject? i used to go all excited when reading history books (that was prior to learning history at school where i was required to cram them all in my head). or shouldn't knowing how this country works made me more informed and knowledgeable? but now, i dun feel like knowing anything more, again, it just like such a bother.

i'm a selfish, irresposible, ignorant person.

though i'm all complaining here, it doesn't even help me one bit in completing my duty. oh my, at this rate, i'm just gonna be the target of anger of my groupmate.

please, put more passion in it, iman!! don't let those good-looking actors deviate your eyes away. be focused, be focused, be focused...........



どうか神様、僕に勇気をください!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

hari ini saya tulis dalam bahasa melayu

hari ini mereka tolak bas (ketika saya menulis ini, sepatutnya masih Rabu)

terima kasih.

kalau ada video merakamkan kejadian tadi, pasti menarik.


hari ini juga, hari kedua kami mempelajari pengajian malaysia.

kami tonton sedikit klip dari filem Leftenan Adnan, oh dan juga Embun.

hampir saya ingat ada sambungan selepas Leftenan Adnan terkorban. rupa-rupanya hanyalah umie aida juga berlakon dalam filem lain pula.

esok, filem apa pula yang bakal kami tengok ya? um, tentang komunis pula. nama chin peng terus terlintas di minda saya.

saya memang bukan penonton filem melayu. apatah lagi filem berkisarkan sejarah.

jelas sekali, penjajah jepun menjajah otak saya pula setelah lebih 60 tahun menjajah tanah melayu.

filem melayu yang terakhir saya tonton: filem animasi 'geng'. komen saya; majulah industri animasi negara, jika dulu tentera british juga kalah, kemudian tentera jepun yang sangat digeruni turut boleh tewas, leftenan adnan mampu mempertahankan bukit chandi (atau chandu, mana2 sajalah) sehingga titisan darah terakhir, apalah bezanya jika mereka dibandingkan dengan penganimasi zaman sekarang. kita juga boleh bukan? atau mungkinkah isunya tetap sama dari dahulu hingga sekarang? kewangankah?

pencarian maklumat untuk tugasan bagi subjek wajib bernilai 1 kredit ini bermula hari ini.

input hari ini - hak istimewa orang melayu termaktub dalam perlembagaan dalam perkara 153 (perlembagaan mempunyai 183 perkara semuanya pada asalnya ketika diperkenalkan).
fikiran saya: piagam madinah dahulu punya sebanyak perkara beginikah? negara bawah pentadbiran rasulullah S.A.W adalah sebaik-baik contoh.


pertanyaaan hari ini: adakah cadbury produk israel? persoalan ini dikeluarkan rakan saya. baru sahaja saya melahap separuh bar besar coklat keluaran mereka. sedap.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

根性なし

for some reason, i was looking for the word 'coward' in japanese

and i remembered this word.



perhaps, i'm a coward after all....