Monday, February 28, 2011

nineteen hundred

that's no random number. i'm heavily hoping for something to put me in relief there.

so, what makes me excited for today is... i'm typing this in my brand new netbook!! this really feels different, when it's me alone who makes the decision. it was quite spontaneous, or not coz i'm sure i've checked this exact model in the internet before but i did not even give it much thought. yet, this is the one i brought home in the end.

yeah, it's plain black. nor did i seek anything fancy.

call me spendthrift or whatever because actually that was not the sole purchase i did for the day. there follows another gadgets which i'll be delighted to disclose later. 

i'm happy~

Saturday, February 26, 2011

photo express

5 of us, the happy housemates during dinner the other day
 but i guess i love this photo the most for such an obvious reason^^

 an unexpected night out with these wonderful pals

 a pizza party with shirin sensei!

Thursday, February 24, 2011


specially dedicated to all my JAD nakama and all my friends wherever you are.

i'm gonna miss them~

Saturday, February 19, 2011

so, what's next?


actually there're quite a lot of stuff in prior to that. surely, we are now filled with ambivalent emotions. but for me at the moment, i'm plainly relieved that i'm finally spared from the hellish exam (yes, i use that word again)

today, aside from that final paper, a lot of stuff ran through my mind. i mean random stuff like what usually filled this head of mine. sometimes i find myself so vulnerable to any distraction when i'm the middle of something else because i tend to think to hard, it sometimes too tiring to do what i originally about to do by then. call me silly, but that's who i am. 

but one thing that attracted my attention was when i visited our university library in the morning to prepare before entering the exam hall. like any library do, books are what they contain and i can't help peeking my heads on the racks especially the japanese ones. here's where i discovered an interesting children's picture book. it's actually a simple story told in a simple way, yet it leaves quite an impression. a big one.

the title in english would be "What is it like?". if i were to tell about the content, it'll spoil everything for those who haven't read it yet. what i can say is you can hardly predict such a story it has here. it'll make you dumbfounded for a while and it'll strike something inside and leads you think further and deeper, it's visceral(yeay, i can finally use this word!). and it subtly highlights how imagination is truly a powerful tool-something we think we have perfectly known all along but tend to heedlessly forget when struggling to get through everyday lives. quite a brilliant work. aside from that, one of the prominent message might be about our perceptions towards the less-fortunate people. like in here, the emerging characters are people from this group whom most of us has little encounter with and very little thoughts about them. usually, most of us would only think about how pitiful they are and it only stops there, no more than that. the thing is if we care to take a little more time to delve deeper we'll discover more than we can ever think. thus, the gist of it all, THINK!
that exact theme reminds me so much of my Maou: Juvenile Remix manga. aahh, i really will reread them this holiday

seems like this post will still be longer from now on, exam's over after all.

so, once i finished reading about that, it's sharing session, right? my friends are as touched as me too with the picture book. and another stuff arises from there. from our limited japanese material, we came to our naive conclusion that japan's children books are indeed rich with such stuff, i mean something with human touch and goes deep rather than superficial and silly stories (is that really the case though?). well, based in our experience when we were young, that is. if i could recall, what i was exposed to was ladybird's 'peter and jane', or the malay stories would be 'pak pandir' or 'pak kaduk' or 'si kancil' renowned from old tales and stuff similar to that. later it goes to something more knowledge-based materials like figuring out how rain forms and stuff like that. i won't really say i did read encyclopedia even though it's lined up nicely on the rack which i only realized of their existence quite later, but i was attracted to animal stuff especially with stunning photos. oh yeah, i did once inspired to be photographer for national geographic.

that's all now still left as a dream far to be realized. and i'm now apparently treading on another kind of path.

probably this is only me who's oblivious to the true situation, but what i feel is that in my current society, we are so in a rush to reach such development where industry and economy are the vital core, hence we lack with people that focuses on the counterpart of it, the human part, to shape people into becoming people who care to think, not programmed robots. certainly there are those people but still, the former far outweighs the later thus the unbalance. okay, i'm in no position to say further, i'm no philosophical expert and my knowledge of the world might not be greater than that of 'katak bawah tempurung'. i can't analyse whatsoever and whatsoever with no data (hahaha, i actually said this, this is so science student?). here, what i mean is, i got a lot more to discover, the whole expanse of the world which takes more than a lifetime to figure out.

i'm looking forward to nihon.

Monday, February 14, 2011

nice timing!!

well, i think i don't have to explain what happened today, just browse around my coursemates' blog for today's date and you can easily figure it out.

the thing is, i hardly fell so much into a pit, various things cheered me up!

the first thing is definitely my sensei-tachi. their words certainly are really encouraging and for some bits help me to laugh out loud. i would treasure those for a very long time to come for sure. i'm glad i happened to read those today after the adversity that fell upon us today.

#2, listening to flumpool's 'hana ni nare' lifts up my spirit yet again. like i said, what a nice timing that the song came to my ears exactly when i'm not at the best moment. along with ryuuta's mellifluous voice and the encouraging lyrics that strides along the whole song, it throws my anxiety away for now. even if i flung today, i can still bloom for another day, yeay Hana ni Nare!

#3, after returning home, as i've promised myself, i allow myself to touch this beloved notebook of mine after todays hellish paper and pamper myself with dramas and stuff (as a sort of consolation and tomorrow's holiday after all). so i decided to watch the one i already got stored in this for a while now-the main reason i have it is that it starred Mukai Osamu. oh my, i'm sooo into him now(followed with Okada Masaki and few others), he's among the most refreshing actors in Nihon right now. well almost all of my entertainment are Nihon stuff. so, what i watched for today was a movie titled "5 Nen go no Love Letter"/Love Letters for 5 Years Later. to say accurately, it's not a movie, it's originally a 12 mini episodes from some kind of handphone tv channel. it's a story about a father who does not even stand a chance to meet his son as he dies before the child is born but he already planned a surprise for the child and the mother which takes place 5 years after his death.

this story strongly reminds me of "P.S I Love You" the part with letters containing missions to be done whilst the sender is no longer in this world. but this story still does not lose of its own charms, and of course tear-jerking! for me who can only easily shed bead of tear (notice the singular form here) for dorama has indeed shed a whole lot for this one-my cheeks literally wet. one thing i notice about tear-jerking moment is that it's more often void of words. just uttering a line and then a moment of stillness with face expression perfectly matched to the situation is enough to break the dam of the tears down. the little boy's character also livens up the whole story. and he's cute to look at! (of course Mukai Osamu also never fails me in that area). in conclusion, i gotta say i love this story.

here's the early part of the story-sorry no english sub:

even only after about 3 minutes from the beginning, i can easily feel the tear brims, that's one touching scene

yes, it's setsunai (my vocabulary is shrinking further now when i can only think up of words of another language than the one i'm using at the moment).

p/s: this is totally trivial over here, the title of the upcoming new song from weaver did make me smile too. Ao iro Graffiti/Blue Grafitti, i'm wondering what kind of lyrics it'll contain this time, i always love songs from them, i respect Kawabe for being such a good song writer.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

there'll be no more of this in nihon (really?)

a recent mail in my inbox:

As a frequent customer of Domino's, it gives us great pleasure to provide you with this exclusive offer:
Free Garlic Twisty Bread

the point is not that mere thing they offer me, it's the fact that i've been quite dependent on them all this while, lol

i wonder if i can still order like this in the future. hahaha, i better learn how to cook for myself from now on

of studying and eating and fangirling

i was determined not to even mention about the upcoming event next week in my blog here

it doesn't stop me from being miserable because of it though

based from my little experience i have, i'm not exactly a person who can perform during the final streaks

that indeed makes me anxious

O Lord, grant me strength