in cloud nine

now, i'm juz overjoyed. soooo happy after such a long time. going to a retreat surely makes you feel refreshed, yea, going to genting was reallly the right choice i made despite the mounting homeworks i have in hand.

in short, i could hardly forget what i experienced yesterday(man, i sounded like i just went through some torture). well, it is because it just made me laugh and so ecstatic for the whole day!!!!!!!!! it was so fantastic. in a day, not only i got to have fun, i also improved my nihongo and getting closer with the japanese people we have here. now, i'll really cherish that memory at genting. now, i love them more, my friends, my extremely kind senpai, the TAs, yukoba-kun. now, even though i have to do so much procrastinated work, i'm rejuvenated. (is that true? i'm extremely tired actually but sooooo happy)

not only that, i received so much bday wishes it made me so 'terharu' that so many ppl actually remembered my bday. i'm so thankful. thanks to my sister too who took the trouble to call all the way from over there when she is actually going to bed. i love you! my relatives too who celebrated my bday 2 days early with a delicious cake-it's a celebration for those whose birthday in nov-dec though. but, the food was great.

now, i have to concentrate on work

the message from my 3rd 'dove' chocolate for today

"Strength comes from within"

still searching deep inside....

i watched ryuusei no kizuna, subbed. i guess when i watched it before without subtitle, i understood it well enough. only missed about 35% of its contents. i can't wait for the time when i can fully understand it without subs.

craps of today

ok, i thought of refraining myself from the amazing innovation of mankind called computer, but here i am, facing it eye to eye again. i juz couldn't resist the temptation. bad me. i am supposed to spend tiem doing homeworks here at the beautiful utility, yet i entered the computer room and utilized one of its set of computer

so, today began late, as yesterday ended really2 late. i slept at around 4 sth. i don't know what had got into me, i watched an episode of ryuusei no kizuna, unsubbed from the beginning till the end. i know i'll waste another 40 minutes again later when the subs are out but well, seeing the complete notice tempted me know what the episode is about.

and i woke up at 6:45.

i arrived at school at 8.

not enough with that, our 'pendidikan islam' today was held at a really cramped place. i slept for nearly an hour.

our 'creative objects' class, i was supposed to complete the orthographic projection of our robot. i tried my hard to do it. never would i expect a sudden change in plan due to some miscalculations that requires a major redo in the drawing. gosh. when will i be able to complete it?? we're racing with time though, by next week, we must complete all through the parts drawings too.

i haven't begun my short story assignment yet.

yes, i know my life now is unorganized

sebelum ianya hilang

pada hari ini, saya tiba-tiba tergerak untuk menulis dalam bahasa malaysia. almaklumlah, dari segi akademik, sekarang, saya hanya perlu menghadap bahasa jepun ataupun bahasa inggeris. walaupun bahasa malaysia menjadi bahasa pertuturan sepanjang masa, saya terfikir, adakah kami menggunakan bahasa malaysia yang asli. kami sudah mencampur-campurkannya mengikut citarasa sendiri. tatabahasa sudah tidak menjadi perkara yang kami ambil kisah. oleh itu, biarlah hari ini saya mempraktikkan bahasa malaysia dari segi penulisan-sesuatu yang sudah lama saya tinggalkan kecuali di dalam ruang sembang.

cukuplah menerangkan mengapa kali ini bahasa malaysia digunakan.

persoalan yang berlegar-legar di kepala otak saya sekarang ini ialah mengenai soal cinta. saya sebenarnya hairan mengapa kita acapkali disogok dengan isu ini. buka saja mata, lihatlah media yang menjadi teman di mana-mana, apakah yang menjadi topik hangat? cinta. cinta antara dua jantina yang tidak tentu halal haramnya. saya kadang-kala terkilan apabila melihat kerakusan manusia yang sekaligus menodai kesucian cinta. cinta sepatutnya merujuk kepada sesuatu yang sangat bermakna, sesuatu yang berharga, benang yang menghubungkan antara manusia, menjadikan manusia lebih berperikemanusiaan. cinta itu sungguh LUAS! hingga ramai yang tidak menyedarinya.
namun, apa yang lebih kita suka fokuskan ialah cinta heteroseksual. "aku suka si dia!" ini barangkali apa yang terdetik di hati seorang perawan ataupun jejaka. saya berpendapat mainan perasaan yang sering bergelora dalam darah si muda memang sukar untuk dielakkan, tetapi perlukah kita pergi meneruskan naluri yang dipandu nafsu itu? tidakkah itu akan bercanggah dengan tujuan hidup kita ini?

ataupun barangkali manusia lupa mengapakah mereka dilahirkan di muka bumi ini??

وَمَا خَلَقْتُ الْجِنَّ وَالإِنْسَ إِلاَّ لِيَعْبُدُوْنِ
[الذاريات: 56]
“Dan tidak Aku ciptakan jin dan manusia kecuali untuk beribadah kepada-Ku” (Adz-Dzariat: 56)

secara umum, ibadah ada dua, ibadah khusus dan umum. bagi diri saya yang sering lupa ini, ibadah khusus pun sukar untuk dijaga dengan sempurna. bila hendak menyentuh tentang ibadah umum ialah apa saja yang kita lakukan disertakan dengan niat kerana Allah, tuhanku yang Maha Besar.

adakah bila saya tertunas rasa suka kepada si dia, saya akan meletakkan niat itu kerana Allah? adakah langkah seterusnya adalah kerana Allah? adakah apabila saya makin rapat dengannya yang pasti membuatkan hati saya gembira bagai di atas awan, semua perbuatan saya yang berkaitan dengannya kerana Allah? adakah dengan dapat membuatkannya menyukai saya, menyentuh si dia, semuanya kerana Allah?

jika tidak, adakah kita sudah tersimpang dari tujuan hidup sebenar?

jadi mengapa kita lebih suka dibuai impi dan ceritera yang akan membuatkan kita tergelincir dari landasan yang sepatutnya kita lalui? sudah hilangkah rasa takut kepada yang Maha Besar? bukannya kita tidak pernah dikhabarkan dengan berita dahsyat balasan kepada yang mengingkariNya.

Aku inginkan pengakhiran yang bahagia, dilimpahi rahmat dan kurniaNya.

jika kita inginkan cinta, sebenarnya kita memang sudah diselimuti cinta, dari saat kita disenyawakan lagi, kita berada dalam zon cinta. kita tidak lari dari cinta, sentiasa di sisi kita hingga kita tidak menyedari kewujudannya. seperti rangkai kata inggeris, "we take it for granted". kita menganggap itu memang apa yang kita ada, bukannya sesuatu anugerah, lantas kita tidak menghargainya. cubalah untuk menghargai cinta yang kita miliki sekarang sebelum ianya hilang dalam keadaan yang kita langsung tidak dapat menyangka.


...fikiran saya masih disibukkan dengan persoalan mengapa kita sering terdedah dengan "public display of affections" yang membuatkan nafsu kita turut terangsang ke arah itu? adakah manusia kini kurang perasaan malu?

cinta = love = 愛

a haiku after so long

there's 39 days left before year 2008 meets its end.

that's fast.

i could remember what i was doing when it was 0000 hours of january 1st, 2008. i was at my house. just arrived from the airport. my baggage still full of stuff waiting to be unpacked. i got less than a week before i go to uniten for my intensive japanese language and english language course. that one took 10 weeks of my year 2008.
thereafter, a short 3 weeks of break, lounging at my house, doing craps. immediately i enrolled in JAD program. it was april.

suddenly, it's nearly the end of november now. i'm even turning 18 next week.

what have i done?
-my 1st sem exam : a bit of disappointment - no worry
-events; bon odori, bunka no hi, raya, went to langkawi, camp at pd
-read novels
-watch drama

i browsed others' blog. they remind of how long has it been the last time i feel like writing a poem. where's my art brain gone to?

matakadai
atamagaitai
yasumitai!

translation:
again, got homeworks,
my head is starting to ache,
please, give me a break!

okay, that's my haiku after so long not getting this brain playing around

oh, how?

juz now, even with our ortoghraphic drawing not done yet, we went to eat our late supper. we had to call it a night (oh, was it morning already?). it was already 1 a.m.

there was a television in the restaurant. -oh, juz how long since the last time i watch tv?

there was a commercial break.

it is an animation figuring a white robot moving slithefully and gone through some sort of transformers' sequence before transfigure into as a plane

+

suddenly, this ran through my mind;
if the old me is watching that, i would surely think of how beautiful the robot is, how i love to see it move surreally unlike human

but, this is what the current me is thinking.
oh, how does they make it move like that? it has so many joints, it sure need a lot of settings. what kind of material is the most suitable for it? it looks like plastic or metal or even fibreglass-do they use fibreglass for robot? how do the parts attach to each other? nails? glue? but, for those complex movement, the commands must come from a microchip. oh, when will i learn about that?

............

surely, taking engineering change one's way of thinking towards something. it's more than just beautiful. it;s how you gonna get it operating. nothing just magically moves as we desire, with human power that probably won't be.

BRAIN +++GET MOVING
BE CONNECTED >NEURONS

dou?

it's friday, no school tomorrow. supposedly i'm happy with that fact but something feels off. do i forget something?

no more dove chocolates. i finished it yesterday by giving it to the guys during the meeting

dai5kai nihongo achievement testo? pretty bad. what i read didn't even appear in the question paper requring me to 'bantai' all the way...

in minutes, i am to go down to the utility room to do the orthographic projection of our robot. i'm still in my tshirt.

i had to to go all the way to plaza alam sentral today due to the dysfunctionality (is this a word?) of the ATM machineS surrounding Unisel. i wonder why can't Unisel install at least an ATM in its premise?

i've listened to flumpool's songs over and over since i was overexcited to find it available for download.

the waiting list of drama/manga for this week is exhausted. i've been reading/watching them all during the weekdays.

so........... does it mean i have to STUDY?

勉強しよう～～～！！

+flumpool+

honestly, i never heard of this band before. not until i watched bloody monday. even that took me until the 2nd episode to realize about the singer of its theme song. guess what, i instantly take a liking to it. anyway, the title for that song is 'over the rain~hikari no hashi~'. it really fits with the mood of the drama. for me who is so blind in music, i could say it have some similar feeling when i listen to dtecnolife songs but more sentimental, dtecnolife's songs are much faster in beats.

the four members of Flumpool [combination of four, lump and pool]

so, being juz like i am, despite the hw i have beside me here, i surfed the net for their video clips for the full version of the song. aside from that song, there were others too from this band. my impression, 'not bad!'. this one song titled 'hana ni nare' has a catchy beginning. (I've mentioned that i know nothing in music, so i could not describe anything). i could continue listening to it even though it's quite long for a song, it went past 5 mins. for the video, though it can be better, they've done their best. maybe it's juz me who do not into video clips that only features the band performing in studio. perhaps, it was done in that style to introduce themselves to the people. they're new anyway. at least, it's not as bad as some other band whose song i really2 love but i would only listen to it rather than watch the video clip. i wonder why can't they do at least an interesting video clip to attract us to see it. in my opinion, because you're lending not only the ears, but also the eyes, so they should show us something extra, give it some story to make it more interesting to watch instead of watching the singer singing the song throughout the video. juz a mere opinion from a little girl here.

i think hollywood makes more interesting video clip than we have here. maybe there're exceptions to one or two that i like, for instance, "kiss, because i'm a girl"-a korean song and also "sayonara" by mr. children. i yet to find another i won't instantly forget. i'm really looking forward to more interesting PV......

overeat?

i know i'm not feeling well, but normally, one who is like that has little appetite, right? strangely, i managed to munch so much today. from when i woke up this morning till now, i dunno how much calories i had already taken in my guts here. i ate a guava, 2 muesli bars, chocolate milk (i pack), 2 bananas, 1 plateful of meal for lunch (it cost me 3.50), 1 pack of haw flakes, 1 ringgit worth of pisang goreng, 2 pieces of chocolate sandwich biscuits, 4 pieces of dove chocolates-yes, i got 4 messages for today;

• "close your eyes and relax"
• "indulge the pure indulgence of DOVE"
• "love is the master key which opens the gates of happiness
• "make someone feel good"

yet, what i did all these times were

• sleeping a lotttt in class-still haven't find the cure to this, any1 can help?
• watching an episode of 'bloody monday' -gosh, i like this story!

instead of studying........

sounds pathetic enough?

i got japanese achievement test the day after tomorrow......

keisatsu

well, today's not like any other day. i'm extraordinarily got my fingers working on writing in a few entries within only a few hours. maybe, it was due to my excessive sleep i had hours ago. in fact, i was sleeping in class longer than i was awake. my excuse; i took medicine and it made me feel sleepy. i've asked the doc not to give me that kind of medicine though.

so, about yesterday's yesterday. my friends and i went to the police station. we were supposed to give statement regarding the snatch case involving my japanese teacher. however, it turned out that we were invalid witnesses as we didn't really see it when the snatching happened. one of my friend, hanisah saw the perpetrators before they were in action. the bike they rode on parked at the petrol kiosk. hidayah was the closest during the snatching yet she only saw it 1-2 seconds after it happened. the bike went away passing in front her, leaving ookoshi-sensei on the ground. me, on the other hand, only in the scene when she already fell onto the ground, hidayah is already there with couple of other people around. i could see blood on her head and hands. feeling panic, we quickly rushed her towards unisel in front of us. it was quite a commotion. i dunno if malaysia is safe or not now. but surely, they, the foreigners had already have bad impression towards this country when this happened to themselves. now i'm ashamed.

back to the police station, i wonder if all police are like that. i know i'm in the wrong here, for attempting to generalize something based only on the small portion of it that i encountered with. whatever it is, i would say our time there was not really good. they were quite rude-i'm not sure if they regard that as rude, maybe it's normal for them. firstly, we asked where can we find this particular person, the answer we got was; "keluar pintu ni, belok kanan, terus, belok kanan, nampak bagunan, naik tingkat satu" in less than 5 seconds with an unfriendly tone. ok, i endured that. then, when we found the place after searching it by ourselves in the end, he was there about a minute after we arrived. he was SMOKING. i hate smoke. on top of that, i'm quite sick with cold and cough, smoke just made it worse. thank go after he called two of my friends, he didn't require my presence, so we all were dismissed. i'm thankful i didn't have to inhale that smoke from the white cylindrical object between his fingers. yeah, we got back. the conclusion is... lu pikirla sendiri

i went to clinic that evening.

some perverted thoughts

have u found someone so cute and adorable, and suddenly u feel like u wanna hug that person? be it in front of your eyes or in the screen. this applies only towards opposite gender.

today, i felt that way....

astaghfirullahal'azim.....


it's okay, someday i can do that too, legally, insyaAllah

or... today? hey cats, where are you! <---implausible, at where i live now, there's no hygienic cats in sight

netsu

i got a bad fever. still in the middle of recovering......
one of my 'dove' that i ate today has this message:

"it's never too late for a fresh start"

well, to start again it's like taking the first step for one more time. which one's more difficult? the first step or continuing from the previous ones? i wonder.....

think

i came across this while surfing through the net;

"Heran ya bagaimana kita lebih bimbang akan apa yang orang fikirkan tentang kita...daripada apa yang ALLAH fikirkan"

it knocked me hard....


it's just soo true it hurts

ryuusei no kizuna continued

gosh, never did i think the story would turn out to be more exciting than i expected. i surfed back the info site, yeah, before, i didn't realize that one its genres is comedy. truly, the comedy element in this story is sooo entertaining. nevertheless, the poignant core of the drama is still focused along the story.

actually, there are hilarious moments they had created despite these painful faces they wear

continuing from the first episode, i watch another 3 episodes of ryuusei no kizuna. i laughed hard. as i mentioned before, in episode 1, the siblings worked out a plan in order to retrieve the money shizuna had lost to a swindler (oh, forgot to mention, the siblings' name are kouichi, taisuke and shizuna). in fact, the plan itself means they became a swindler. the plan, engineered by the eldest, kouichi, even have its own name; "letter from canada". it was so ingenious it went hilariously perfect and they got the money after all. but i would never guess the story will take its course of where the siblings continue this swindling work! at first, i didn't refer it as swindling though as the next plan was directed toward shizuna's ex-boss who made her super annoyed with his attitude. so, it was obscured with the intention of paying back. but, when i look back, yes, they swindled the man's money in the end. this second plan was called, "Takayama Hasanobu, the delusional chief clerk". now, they all look more like detailed play scripts rather than plans. so, in this second play directed by kouichi, shizuna really did become a good actor in swindling. again, she disguised as another woman who really caught his ex-boss's heart. taisuke(the second brother) on the other hand, plays as a bank employee who offers an investment offer-this is the scam. yes, he fell for it, not purely on the investment, it was because of shizuna. from this plan, they got 150000 yen. the most interesting part here is, kouichi was so into the plan, he made logo representing them (i forgot when it first appears but i'll surely find it).

the following plans that kouichi came up including one after they suddenly found their old friend from the institution they were sent to when their parents died. the girl was pregnant from the affair she had with her ex-middle school teacher. the problem arose when he didn't want to take responsibility. so, the script is shizuna approaches the teacher as his ex-student. the bait was that this ex-students willingly lent him money after the teacher confided in her about the girl he made pregnant. so, as an obligation, the teachers return the money when he had handed the borrowed money to the pregnant girl. ok, it does not stop at that. they deceived this teacher into buying a insurance premium after he thought this ex-student of his is struggling a hard deal working as an insurance seller. now, that's the catch. the script comes to conclusion with the teacher opened the yearbook and discovered that the name of this ex-student is actually a boy. pretty cunning, right.

the next one is what brings the story to its conflict. this next script was crafted just because kouichi was irritated by this one son to a boss of a big restaurant chains. this plan is more high-sophisticated than the previous ones. to cheat this man, shizuna acts as a girl newly arrived from abroad, so this requires shizuna to study english all of a sudden. taisuke on the other hand, acts as a jeweller, well, he got to learn jewellery, something really out of his field. the plan was to use shizuna's charm to make him buy a ring for her. it would end with both money and ring to their hands. the deception plan went good and of course a joy to watch. just see how shizuna acts as a college girl honestly telling what's on her mind. however, this came difficult for shizuna as she continued on the script. because the other party is a restaurant owner, it is highly related to her memory of her father.and...... what's going to shock them the most is, the key to the murder of their parents is at none other place but here!

so, the suspense just builds higher and higher now. while these hilarious swindling affairs serve as an insight of how they strive to continue their life, it's none other than a side story to the main aspect of the dorama. the promise they had made since childhood, that is to find the murderer and get revenge by themselves still lives on. the frequent flashbacks from the time their parents were killed emphasises their will to make the oath come true. well, this story promises to be more exciting and more puzzles which surely would get me hooked to it even more.

i found the logo, look, it's cute, right?

BLOODY MONDAY:manga and dorama

continuing from the previous entry, the next series i instantly took in favour is 'Bloody Monday'. even the title itself sounds terrifying. yes, it is because in the story, a whole nation is threatened by a deadly virus meant to cease the existence of its massive population. the dorama is based on a manga. so, beforehand, i already read the manga and i know, i should watch this! not only because the main star is attractive (the one plays Ren in gokusen 3), the plot is exciting too, always making me on edges.

to compare the manga and the dorama, the story is intact but there is a slight changes in the details and arrangement of events and the matter of decency. it was a shonen manga to begin with, so some exposure of 'those' thingy is originally high than the dorama which must fit to various audiences. the first episode of the dorama unexpectedly took long enough. i watched in mysoju and there were 6 parts of it in which each parts spans more than 10 mins. the protagonist, takagi fujimaru is only a highschooler but he posesses such an amazing skill in hacking, allegedly a legend. supposedly, about 2 years ago, he had sworn to his father-a member of a special division in the authority, never to do hacking again. however, due to some circumstance, he actually do it once again when one of his teacher went over the limit. this case differs from the manga where ths suspended students are a couple who were caught kissing. the trigger to kitagi's involvement is the suicide attempt by the suspended girl. in the dorama, a girl who worked part-time is suspended, after the teacher made an offer to the girl to give herself to him but the girl refused-coincidentally, takagi noticed the girl ran from the teacher's lab and caused his suspicions. so, i think this beginning is not so strong. progressing to the centre of the story-about the virus plan, the opponent side reveals more figures than in manga while both focus on Maya, the women who approaches takagi as a teacher. in addition to that, the drama features the existence another hacker on the other side that is as good as takagi. while takagi is using his famous alias, Falcon, the other one is Bluebird. before that, the time when his father was framed as a murderer making him a fugitive, the resulting course of events differs too. in the dorama it seems that his own whole division suspects him in the murder. there is a woman who would come to takagi's house and and be by their side, however the dorama features her as the observer from the division instead of someone trusted by takagi's father who believes in his innocence like in manga. here. takagi is left with no one to trust.

[manga volume 1]

talking about trust, in manga, he actually has a circle of friends who borrow their strengths while takagi struggle to discover the truth. in dorama, he is alone, only the double-faced maya with him. the whole story starts when takagi decode a file about a christmas massacre that whips out a whole town in russia, a small trial of the effectiveness of the virus. it was a request from his father initially as a part the division he works in (also known as third-i). when his father has become a fugitive, he is told to forget about it, yet he decode that after all. in the manga, this was the time his friends-the newspaper committee knew about the whole things and offer their support. in dorama, he directly pass it to the woman from the third-i which stays suspicious of his father. the next sequence of event where takagi's sister, haruka got kidnapped resolved differently too. in the absence of anyone by his side but the woman from third-i, he tried to save his sister in a less stylish way than in manga where it involves his friends who includes a prodigy in karate and archery. the term set by the kidnapper is the same which requires him to haack into a power station system but the action brings different meaning in manga and dorama. the manga concludes the goal from that term is purely to make sure takagi does the hacking while in dorama, they actually in need of the info from the hacking for the next turn of event which is truly shocking. they cause a stir in a shopping complex after causing a blackout and spreading fumes from an unknown box. this by itself contains some actions. all the important figures in third-i (again, in dorama, they truly suspect takagi's dad) and takagi himself gathered in the midst of confusion. the situation was really panicking with fear of the virus threat. there was quite a chaos there. however it was finally resolved but it ended that the affair at the complex signifies that the opponent had already got hold of falcon, in what way, i'm that slow to figure out by myself.

either way, it's undoubtedly an excitable turn of plot for both manga and dorama. a definite must watch. honestly i prefer the manga for its emphasis on friends' element and a more laid back attitude of takagi, but the dorama itself is a fabulous show full of suspense and actions. another episode made me anticipating more and more. really looking forward to the next one.

Bonds under the falling stars

oh god, i'm sure i've promised myself not to get engrossed in dorama again, at least for this crucial second sem. but no, i just had to find my new obsession and there it goes. i'm already hooked to it, not just one, but two!

so, after a long while, i deviantly resumed my downloading routine. it started with 'ryuusei no kizuna'. at first, i thought i'll only look forward to it after this sem is over, or the earliest during the year-end holidays. however, to find it already on the net, it was such an hard-to-resist temptation. feel kinda kinda relieved even though the 3-day interval in completing its first episode seems absurd, at least i'm not occupied in front of the comp during that time span. the past week had also been a tough one, with the physics quiz and all. it's not like the other weeks hadn't been tough enough, and the upcoming week too, i have nihongo achievement test in schedule and assignments to finish, gosh, i really a big-fat procrastinator. ok , back to the topic, the dorama was awesome!! it was worth it waiting for such a long time until it finished downloading. ok, roughly, the story is about siblings of three whose parents were killed when they were children, on the night they surreptitiously went out of the house to watch falling stars and returned only to find their parents' cold bodies in a pool of blood. the story catches up when they're already grown-up with the murderer still at large and only months away before the case officially closes. the eldest brother however is determined to find this man who had wrecked their lives. the irony here is that the one who stars as this eldest of the siblings who carry the sufferings throughout his life and bears a painful expression in his face is ninomiya kazunari-a member of arashi who had the most cheerful face and one can't help but to find him adorable. compared to his last series-'yamada tarou monogatari', this is an absolute shift of his character. on the other hand, the one who plays as the second brother who is cheeky with a playful attitude is nishikado ryou-the famous Asou in 1 litre of tears. i haven't watch that whole series yet, but i watched him in 'last friends'-he plays as a psycho guy here, really scared me. here, they make a fabulous mix of characters. oh, not to forget, the last of the sibling is their sister who actually unrelated by blood, to make the story more interesting, of course this vital fact is still unknown to her.

at first impression, my perception was that this gonna be a sad story, full of displays of their sufferings while the whole truth unfolds before them. instead, what i got from its very episode seems to trample that idea. yes, they had a painful, unerasable memory and an incomplete childhood. they even bear massive distrust towards the cop who fail to catch the perpetrator of their parents' murder. even mentioning about the case would cause instant uneasiness. yet, in enduring so, they more or less live their life, in their own way. and this drama, had portrayed that amazingly well, in a somehow, beautiful way. there is an incident in the episode where the sister got swindled after giving up his job in a high-class firm for some reason. well, it was frustrating, anyone would. the eldest didn't give much expression at first, making the sister even madder. however, as the story progresses, the younger two plans to get the money back, and to their utter surprise-after their pathetic plan failed, their brother is already steps ahead in doing so. what more than that is the thing his brother had then was actually a brainy one which had required unthinkable efforts one would ever put. despite the painful look he always carry, he actually would go that far-investigating on his own, spending days scrutinizing suspects, and even crafting a whole detailed tactics in retrieving the lost money. oh gosh, that left his brother and sister astounded too, to witness such existence of an unexpected side of their brother. as an audience, me too was full of excitement by then. and guess what, the plan actually worked perfectly even with its bizarre method. well, it was really an enjoyable first episode. i'm really looking forward for the next one!

p/s : before the series, i listened to its theme song by arashi but i didn't quite like it but then, when i watch it, it really fits the dorama.

nani?

oh, i guess i just missed lots of events to be off-record. just now, i surfed through osaka class blog and there were pictures from when we gathered at watima-sensei's house. man, that was one of the event i won't forget, not so soon. there, i got to meet all of them who were so far away. okay, exceptions to those who are already at overseas and to far to travel to kl or got another business to do. anyway, i arrived ther quite late since everyone else was already there. the journey there was a little story in itself. the reason for my late arrival was due to the additional class i had in the morning. it only ended in the afternoon. i was with fatimah then. running out of time, i kindly ask from my teacher to hitchhike us to the nearest commuter station. lucky, she agreed. however, there was still a good deal of walking from across the stree or more accurately, we stopped on the flyover and walked along the pavement, down the bridge to the commuter station. while we were out of the car, there was already a commuter passing by. thinking there wouldbe lots of time before the one, we sauntered down the road without any haste. but then, just when we were metres away from the station, it arrived. imagine how rushed i was to catch it. i dropped my phone, thanks it's not broken. fortunately, we caught it after all. that was how i got the commuter.

fast forward to when we've arrived at ukm station, it happened we were actually on the same train as 3 others coming from kmb. so we joined and make a 2 taxi convoy. as we arrived at the house after a good deal of finding it, i could see smoke already puffed up inthe air. there was BBQ! yes, the food's nice. there was also caramel which i love so much. i ate the chicken about 5 pieces i guess, there was always new ones after another. in short, i got bloated when i get home. but, what i was so excited about is absolutely meeting all of them! mashitah, anis, najwa, ira, mimi, faseehah, attiya, nabilah, nada and the others. we chatted a lot. i mean there were so much to talk about. the boys were also in high spirits too. i mean, there were never enough of the jokes. all in all, we had a great afternoon there. at about 6, everyone already made their way to return. i got back with faseeha and stay at her house for a while before my dad fetch me. in fact, that was the first time i arrived the despite the fact that faseeha had many times lounging around at my house. at least i got to see her cute brother.

the girls

dove

it's just that i went back all the way to my home 25 minutes away despite my mount of homework for the sole reason of chocolates. well, it's no ordinary chocolates, not here. i could find it nowhere in where i live. those chocolates were posted by my sister now residing in pittsburgh. now, i love her more. not only that, she included in the parcel a bag whose size i find kinda big and a 2009 calendar. the calendar was special coz for every sheet of the day was meant to be cut into an artpiece. it's called kirigami by the way. kiri = cut, gami = paper. it's so interesting i can't wait to start cutting once 1st january is over. but god, i'm afraid for the year to end so quickly. i haven't done enough things for this year.

so, what i love most among those bundles of chocolates is probably this one,

not only because of smooth texture of this dark chocolate which melts in your mouth like heaven, the chocolate cover also includes a message. i like to keep those messages. it's so inspiring. i mean, not only you feel good coz of the chocolate in your mouth, you also get in spirit. that's a good combination.

and they also serve as a beautiful decoration for my file. now, i can get through the day.

so, with the new stock of chocolate, i guess i'm more energised to face the days ahead. i got my supply of energy, feel good and i just hope my weight does not rise again.

remember\forget

yeah, i just finished reading a wonderful novel which i bought lil more than a day before. i went to mph warehouse sale a few weeks back and brought home 9 novels yet i finished reading this book i just bought first before them. i admit it was a totally page-turner. oh yea, it's 'Remember Me' from none other else but Sophie Kinsella. i am really intrigued by the whole content (ok, make exceptions on those 'turning on' parts, i totally have zero interest in those). all i could say is i didn't regret spending 35 ringgit on the spot i saw it on display. guess what, i've been waiting for the paperback since the year started. and now, the year is almost at its end.



just imagine if one day you find urself suddenly 3 years ahead of what you could recollect. ok, if it's me, i might already finished my Jad programme here and by then, find myself in a totally unknown place in japan. ok, that would totally freak me out. nonetheless, for the antagonist of this story, she finds herself as a wife she doesn't even know, a boss in the department of the company she remembered just joined 51 weeks before, having body figure she could only be envious of and a her own personality of someone she never was. anyone would be if not extremely, ultimately shocked by all this new possesion one could not remember getting a hold of. she wakes up to discover her life is like a fairy tale. her husband is a multimillionaire. her house is a grand, far beyond normal penthouse one could ever live in. a fully digital-functioning house controlled by a remote control. a big screen displaying anything from sceneries, her mail inbox and her visual pets. it was like those houses in 'cribs' program on mtv. but, more important, she was allegedly married a gorgeous man coming out from magazine yet owning his own property company. what's that? however, to her surprise, from remembering being a laid-back office girl who typically enjoy being in company of friends, loves chocolates, having a messy table, her 28-year-old self is nothing of all that. she is supposed to be a composed career lady, who treats her subordinates(also used to be her best buds) harshly, wearing nothing but black and beige and enjoys food none other than low-carb diet. no cookies, no chips.

it all felt surreal.

well, she struggles to find herself in this new personality. having a perfect marriage, perfect body, perfect career in short a perfect life seems all dreamy and a thing one could ever wish for. yet, she felt void. she then discover more strange things. her best friend is now some high-class girl who only enjoys gossip while her buddies she had known throughout childhood no longer in speaking terms. it was only 3 years but it felt like she lost a lifetime. everything turns over drastically. there is no way the previous her could feel belonged now. a husband prepared everything in a manual, get fussed over a cloth on the floor, who sends invoice for what the wife broke at the house doesn't seem like an ideal man you want to live with though his assets could probably feed every war refugees this raging world contains. getting stares from your own subordinates calling you names you won't want to hear does not seem like an example boss one could ever be. well, being so up high, wealthy and affluent does not guarantee a good life one could imagine. there's no use raking up all those money if you know how to care for others.
well, at least that's what i had learnt.

in short, the whole story is so magnificent you would not want to put it down. your heart jumps up and down. however, the girl in the story lost her 3 years due to an accident, but me who meet no accident, just frequently forgetting stuffs, at an important time at that. why the heck is that?

hanadan!!

hahaha, at long last, i got to watch the movie for hana yori dango!! it's not too exaggerated to say i'm over the clouds now. i am really happy. the drama series was so exciting and with the movie, i would say they managed to bring it to a very beautiful end. i remember i used to watch the series one episode after another, well, sometimes it made my heart jumped. nonetheless, the movie my heart jumped more than ever. hahaha. what made watching the movie overly exciting was by seeing it with friends-a lot of us. in fact, i went to the cineplex together with 10 others. even our TA came along, she only watch it now coz she didn't get the chance when it was showing in japan back then. thankfully, the movie is shown at sunway pyramid which is close from our place. without waiting for the weekend, we went there the evening of our last class of the week.

because of dinner, i was late for about 5-10 minutes. fortunately the moment i entered the hall, it was time when makino was presented with the tiara- i didn't miss the vital part of the story. in the movie, as the time space is years later after the series, they really look great. i still love hanazawa rui. he's so hot! tsukasa was somehow i realize having more manageable curls? makino on the other hand, although nearly graduated fromnuniversity, she still have the same look like when they were in high school. for the story, this movie mostly focused on this main couple and how they tried to retrieve the stolen tiara. tsukasa in this movie surely blurted out sweet and romantic lines it would really make your heart melt should those are meant for you. however, he's still as stupid as ever. all in all, though the theft of the tiara unveils itself as only a mere conspiracy, tsukasa and makino developed their characters as a more matured couple. i'm glad the movie doesn't include such 'hot' scenes that always appear in love stories. nevertheless, the passionate kiss on the wedding day was enough to suffice those elements. and also the scene when tsukasa was totally heated up but was disrupted before taking any single move was really funny- i laughed so hard my stomach ached. ah, talking about their wedding, that was truly a great wedding, considering the sentimental value they had on the venue. i wish i have a memorable wedding like that too. aah, so dreamlike. not enough of that, the last few minutes of the movie really gave it a satisfying ending. well, it doesn't escape the 'happily ever after' concept but there was a deeper meaning to the whole story. it kinda gave this kind of ending "i-may-not-know-what-comes-hereafter-but-i-would-surely-protect-this-happiness-no-matter-what". for me who could care less about love in her own life, i still get touched watching the story.

though not every one of was a staunch follower of the series, i admit we truly enjoyed it. i enjoyed it-very much. my 11 ringgit sure had flown but it was worth it. i don;t mind watching it again. i would still smile and grin like it's first time. oh, last night was even more delighting for me as i could get hold of sophie kinsella's new novel 'Remember me'. i'm halfway reading it now n i guess i would finish earlier than i thought. i didn't mind another 35 ringgit flown away. the story is just fabulous!

but then i remembered, i have physics quiz next week and i hadn't make any effort in studying it.