genkidashite~

indeed, today's paper was extremely interesting...........
interpret it anyway u want

but then, i came into this; rather than i'm brooding on what happened and worrying for its outcome, it's better if i just enjoy as much as i can until the day that i should be really sad... rite?

if i'm feeling down from now, and continue to surely be sad later, that just doubles my misery. however, if i just cheer up as if nothing happened, i'm spared from that multiple abyss...

smile and laugh

look forward for my happy2 thingy...

yeaaa, my awaited dvd will come its way here a month from now <---this one excites me so much

and also my trip to langkawi this weekend~~~~~~~~

\(^_^)/

minna, ganbarou!!

rm51 worth of origami

ambivalent emotions - that's what i experience for today, in less than 12 hours

to put it chronologically, it'll be as follows : excited, guilty, dejected, clueless, surprised, delighted

for excited and guilty, followed by dejected, all came from the same cause... quite accidentally i watched a drama, breaching my own promise to myself. excited because naohito fujiki is so hot and the character he brought is soo damn full of suspense. obviously guilty for watching it 4 episodes straight despite it was exam night. dejected for not able to resist myself to this temptation.

clueless a bit during exam though i've read it many times over. perhaps, it's because lack of sleep. hmm, dejected again.

surprised when my sensei announced it's purely holiday till wedenesday for 5 days.

another biggggg surprise when i withdraw my money from the ATM. not only coz i can't withdraw RM10, the one appeared was something i didn't recognize. catching a slight glimpse, i was like "ehhhhh, how come, indonesian note all of a sudden" but then, it really was RM50. ohhh, new ones has been issued, is it? shiranakatta.

my impression, i like the former one better, looks more sophisticated.

oh, and delighted, the note has now turned out like this!

otanjoubi omedetou~~

first of all, i would like to wish my beloved roommate 'happy birthday!!' though i doubt she ever read this blog... hahaha

well, last nite was a blast.... sorry if we cause overwhelming noise to our neighborhood. whatever it is, i'm happy that the birthday girl is sooo much pleased...

back to my exam which is still running, i guess it's quite sad it went like i how i want it least to be. perhaps it's just like they say, ur mind determines much of the things revolving you. when i think everything negative, they really do turn out negative... so, my negative self, could you please make ur way out? talking craps here

mentioning about crap, i believe what my head contains are pretty much ....( i dun exactly want to call them crap but) let's just say unbeneficial (is this the right word?) stuff. even in the middle of exam where i would be half conscious at times, my mind would start visualising things that i've taken a great liking to but probably stuff that i am not supposed to even think at the time. facing the exam paper, in my head there also reverbrates a song non-stop, ones in my regular playlist, if only it was nasyeed/quran, i'd feel better too...

so, i don't put high hopes or anticipate anything during this exam. i pretty much play than study... i admit that, yes, my own fault, no need to remind me on that.


but, today i somehow feel down due to some reasons. not because of these arduous exams, it's something else. when i reflect myself, i sometimes wonder, do i impose myself so much, if i do, how can i know it? i don't intend to make others uncomfortable, let alone to make them unhappy. i may seem selfish when thinking i don't want to be hated by others but is it only my feeling or...? it's so painful to only keep it down here, to blurt it out seems so difficult, so now i'm grateful that blogs are created... (somehow, i feel so pathetic) but i'm just soo not good in words. gomen. everyone, sumimasen

the uneaten rm11 unagi don

yes, as mentioned before, today there was bon odori! at panasonic stadium... this time, i really gotta properly thank my only brother for today. he kindly brought us (me and 2 friends of mine) there though i was late a bit.. i guess that really gave me a lesson for being late. we actually had to park our car soooooo far from the venue and to walk between the two place was just &%^$#. (let's just assume i'm short on vocab)

anyhow, we were there safely. i was so keen on eating whatever delicious stuff they have that i had no chance to eat last year. as expected, when we arrived, it was 6 and there was already sea of people crowding the place. as for me, who is a bit anti with these type of place, i guess there was no choice but to just endure it.

so, then, my so-good-brother only brought so little money with him but thanks eli, you covered on my part.

then we parted.

alone, i'm wandering, the unagi don in my hand along with the uchiwa and a bottle of juice. alhamdulillah, as i wanted, i managed to meet my senseis!! well, they do dress up for this event, love seeing them wearing yukata.... but it was a bit unfortunate that not all of the sensei could make their way here. but i guess i'm lucky enough to have this chance to meet whoever was present, i tell you, they are way prettier on such occasion.

with Utsumi-sensei and Ishibashi-sensei (i wonder just why they are still unmarried with such beauty.

a nice shot by my kouhai. kuga-sensei is in such a splendid pose.

but after all, they deserve the title of 'model japanese family' -i didn't get a very nice shot though-

and isn't kouki-kun just soo adorable. however, if he resembles his father in term of attitude, i can't imagine just how much girls he would attract later


and not to forget, one of the happiest thing is that i could meet fatin too!! though it was just momentary, but compared to the speech contest, we hardly got to speak to each other. hmm, just when i thought she would come with yukata on....

and back to my main purpose coming here-the food. it all scattered away and thrown down the bin. some unfortunate thing happened when the container fell with the contents out.... i haven't even get the slightest taste of it yet, but there's nothing i could do but to brood about it. and i specially skip my lunch for this..........

jaaa, benkyou?

sin, log and matrices...

this might be trivial, but the fact is i used to love math very much, how i could find it easy to comprehend and sometimes challenging

so, today, it has been a while that this self is fully engrossed in the world of math again, or specifically, the area which is the range of our exam tomorrow... hmm, sin, log, bibun sekibun (differentiation-integration), matrices-this one's linear algebra or so it's called i think.....

surprisingly but somehow expected, it took me sooooooo long today to just solve a simple problem and the ones that follow... oh my, now i think this head has become slow after so long... now that i feel some kind of remorse for being such a lazy bum, never bother to practise... of coz that'll be hard, ne? okay, after this, dun forget to practise regularly, okay?? (let's just see how this will really be happening or not :P)

alhamdulillah, i guess, to sink again in these numbers make me lively again, instead of hating them each time i'm stuck... and thanks sensei, i can't help but to think you are so adorable... hahaha


jaa, i only could see how i've improved after hours of practice in this last-minute basis.... tomorrow will be the day (i dun want to be disappointed again with what-supposed-to-be-my-favourite-subject)... and also, tomorrow i have more reason to cheer up. yes, tomorrow's the bon odori at panasonic stadium! takoyaki, unagi, cute balloon, here i come!! not to forget, i'd love seeing our teacher in their lovely yukata~~~

and possibly some durians are coming too........ this one, i'm greatly in love~

forget my misery today, looking forward to tomorrow (the song tomorrow from 'annie' reverbrating far in my head)

while i know i'll feel so bad later

dun mind anything, this entry is still posted despite the circumstance where i shouldn't even be thinking of getting near my beloved notebook, but still i do

well, i guess it's all in the mind. currently i feel so down coz tomorrow is the paper which subject i really a have a problem in. approximately, of the whole class we had, my understanding only covers 35% of it, and my mastery is even lower than that. owing to that, of course i'm panicking now. tachibana-sensei, i'm sorry....

but, when i think again, panicking won't do me anything. it's just panic.

so, i went to cheer myself up by getting a lot of flumpool inputs. well, that surely bring a lot of smiles onto my face.oh my, i can't help but getting myself adoring them more and more. never thought i would be such a staunch fan. hmmm, fangirling again.... (izzati, u understand me the most in this matter). however, when watching this one interview on them, i feel kinda sad for not being able to fully understand the whole heated up conversation. i guess i should work out more on my nihongo. mada mada dakara naa...

oh, and today, i actually learnt a lesson: trust your first instinct! dun copy others!

hahaha, i actually copied my friend's answer after being so inconfident with mine. if only i could trust myself more. it turned out that all my copied answers are wrong while the unwritten answers, floating in my head are actually the correct ones.

so, no copying again, ok! honestly, this is one of my rare cases of copying........

jaa, i guess i better get going and keep my spirit up. there are only few hours remaining that i could use to actually get as much as i can to cram in my head and vomit it out tomorrow on the answer sheet....

ya allah, please, at least let me pass this paper.. as for the other subjects, give me strength, more than ever before, i really need those now.........

bisu

yes, i know i'm not exactly in a circumstance where i should waste my time idling away or posting a blog entry, but let's just treat this as a momentary retreat....

so, today, my exam has started

and that was probably not a good start at all

i guess, my experiment on the effectiveness of last-minute-study didn't end with a good outcome. well, i've predicted that somehow. whatever it is, i have one subject cleared off my mind right now, that i'm so thankful....

for now, i'm so inconfident with my 'information processing' paper which is just the day after tomorrow. oh please, just what can i do in this remaining time to make all the complicated contents etched into my head?? ok i got another more worrying subjects too which are just days away while no revising has been done at all..... i admit, i'm a lousy time manager......

hmm, now i feel like calling someone, venting my stress away


but then, yesterday, my phone went mute ___________

good timing
@)%(&#Q*()^

..........ya allah, mudahkanlah urusanku di dunia dan di akhirat.........

oh yea, if the rain could clear up the current haze in the atmosphere, what could clear up the haze in my head?

ashita?

iyoiyo, shiken da ne.........

my study plan for last minute study, 2 days b4 exam didn't exactly go like i planned... too many distractions, too many temptations

couldn't even complete the few questions on ch4 of information processing.... so aside from studying all day, what i managed to slip in between was:

-reading manga: a chapter each for 5 different series
-snacking a lottt : half a big bar of chocolate, kerepek bwg, apple
-reading ppl's blogs (of coz flumpool's the top of the list)
-surfing livejournal for a while
-searching for radwimps songs from their latest album
-surfing on youtube
-folding origami
-skipping (only managed to get 87 as the best for today)
-enjoying dinner for more than half an hour
-writing in entry for the blog..........

so, today, i hope i'll have a smooth day....... no cursings or whatever, to everyone, i'm sorry if i've ever offended you, might be i never meant to do that...........