Wednesday, January 13, 2010

unfit

without doubt, with the current state of mine at the moment, there's no way i'll be able to make it through.

whether it's for the final exam which is only 30 days away (oops, only 29 left)

or for bleep test next week. ouch, my ankles still takes the toll from the sprain the other day.

but for some particular reasons, i'm quite oblivious to all that, pacified n smothered in a momentous happiness.

well, there's a saying, happiness spreads, so better spread it out wide!

hehehe, the reason as to why i'm quite cheerful at the moment might be trivial, but it still leaps my heart in joy. the thing is i managed to finish the novel i just bought the other day! and it left quite an impression to me. i'm so glad i've read it. it's certainly a valuable buy, hehe thanks to jaja who paid for it anyway. i just knew i had to get it once i caught it in my sight. i've been a fan to terry pratchett especially the books targetting the young readers. and this latest book from him certainly do not fail to amaze me more. oh, it's like i've mentioned before in one of my post, it's entitled 'Nation'.

the story sets on an island so far from the main land we know and not even visible on the map for it lies under one of the letters of the name of the ocean. and a boy was awaiting his moment of returning to that island again. only to find there's no one left. no houses, no village, all have been swept by a monstrous wave (this kinda made me feel the author got his inspiration from the tsunami incident few years ago). however, he's not alone. the wave also brought a sailing ship which crashed in the forest killing all the crews, but one single passenger on it-a princess.

okay, this is no ordinary boy meet girl story.

unlike any other, pratchett has this distinctive characteristics he lays on the characters he creates, they are the persons who loves to 'think'. in fact, think far too much than any regular person would in times they want it or not, but they constantly think. okay, this is the point that kinda hit me a bit. while i know the path i'm pursuing requires much thinking, more often than not i prefer to find the easy way-the one without much thinking-it tires out the brain. however, when i read about these characters, it reminds me how foolish i've become. indeed, dreams are important, but it does not stop there when you have one, you have to think of the ways of realizing them. hohoho, that's what we tend to ignore.

back to the story, though not much romance is involved, i still feel it's so sweet. it certainly don't go like the cliched happy-ever-after, but still, one can hardly question the ending. although eventually the two persons were separated, they are happy after all in their own ways-having done the good for the greater cause. i love the way it reaches the conclusion. the story just goes on.

hahaha, now i believe i'm such a bad reviewer with such vague descriptions of the story and all. this is only based on how i felt after reading the whole book-good feeling seeps in. perhaps, for overcoming the ordeal i'm facing in a month, such new insight like this is needed too.

to think. and keep on thinking

Thursday, January 7, 2010

painful yet joyful

yesterday's occasion is really what i would call a spontaneous decision. it was really uncalled for when we suddenly had to decide whether to go ice skating or not in just less than 5 minutes.

and it had already way past noon.

however, considering the circumstance(it originally is a promise we made and there was no any other day), it apparently didn't allow us to say 'no'. so, in a rush, we had to get there at least by 5.

and as all 'janji melayu' would be, we only arrived at the promised place when it had passed 6-not entirely our fault, it's majorly the ktm which fail to arrive punctually and to wait for it alone cost us more than an hour. so, when we entered the ice rink, it was nearly half past six. we merely had about an hour and half left to enjoy ourselves. nevertheless, what happened more or less managed to leave a constant smile on my face. i can't stop laughing and a lil bit agitated too, when someone said it was his first time yet he skates like a pro. grrr. but a lot of thanks to Hirai who taught me a bit when i struggled to get my grip, it was only my 2nd time and what more the ice rink was wet and not as smooth as a lot of people were on it.

and suddenly, i fell. okay, this might be trivial as that was for how many times, i don't even know. the thing is, for that one time, i couldn't get up on my feet. owww, that was hurtful! it was really embarrassing, so i just put up a strong face while getting help from one of my kouhai who was present at the scene. to have a sprained ankle in the middle of having fun is really unpleasant. so, quite reluctantly i had to stop and be a benchwarmer until the others finished. they certainly do know how to enjoy in others' adversity.


so, once everyone was already over, we went to the next agenda. MAKAN2!!! hahaha, i was completely famished after the whole day as what i had was only a bowl of muesli and a few bites of a bun i shared with my sis prior to going to skating. so, while persevering with this aching leg of mine, i dragged it after all to our restaurant of choice-my condition was only as long as it's not rice. well, at first, how kind of them to consider how limited our budget was and recommended jusco's food court. it just didn't seem a good one so we moved on to some place nearby, a pasta place. not bad but then, it's quite expensive. so they recommended one other place, pasta also, and i just agreed and went from the lowest floor to the top floor... only to find out the price was no different from the previous one. maa ii ka, more walking would only hurt more so i guess it's better to just settle there. now i appreciate the escalators more...

and who says i don't like green tea?

well, thanks to them, we had quite a feast. to have good food definitely equals to happiness. just that it comes with a price. hahaha. nonetheless, i could forget the pain for a while when savoring the lamb-i just love this. but certainly, 'special green tea' is no special, they just add the sweetness which is such an unnecessary attempt. so when we'd like the normal one, when we expected a glass of it, a whole jug came!


well, last night was quite sleepless owing to the pain but the memories etched for the day overwhelmed all that.. thanks again to these wonderful people!!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Impostor Phenomenon

i first discovered the above term when i was reading a blog of a friend of mine.

it's like this:
a phenomenon which is like a tape that plays inside people’s heads.  If you’re an engineering student looking around at your classmates, the tape goes something like this: “These people are good—they understand all this stuff. They really belong here…but I don’t. Over the years I’ve somehow managed to fool them all—my family, my friends, my teachers. They all think I’m smart enough to be here, but I know better…and the very next hard test or hard question I get in class will finally reveal me as the impostor I am.” And what would happen next is too horrible to contemplate, so at that point you just rewind and replay the tape.

well, honestly, i at first thought the tape he meant was cellophane tape kind of tape :P

nevertheless, it knocked me hard when this just seems like the plain truth of what's happening in my shoes now. as the excerpt comes from an article which is sorta advice for engineering students, so it just hits me in the head. hurm, quite a challenge, isn't it? well, the explanation goes further as the following;

What you don’t know is that almost everyone else in the class is playing the same tape, and the student in the front row with the straight A average is playing it louder than anyone else. Furthermore, the tape is usually wrong. If you survived your first year of engineering school, you almost certainly have what it takes to be an engineer. Just remember all your predecessors who had the same self-doubts you have now and did just fine. You do belong here, and you’ll get through it just like they did. Try to relax and enjoy the trip.

and what i'm afraid of at the moment is that, i haven't even finished my 1st year yet. but then, this laziness and ignorance had gone far too high........

yosh, これからもがんばろう!!



Monday, January 4, 2010

upgrading work in process [FINISHED]

so, this is what i'm doing instead of studying....

and DONE!!

i thought of tidying up the labels, however that would require so much work.... but with exception to all posts concerning flumpool-only for those i made sure they are properly labeled. it seems like i write about them for average once a month(dangerous fandom, it swallows my homework time)

so, new snail, and bigger~ heheh, somehow snail leaves an impression into me, so it stays. but for keeping the sidebar same as before is quite a hassle coz everything has to be done all over. and moved from classic template to the new one so it took quite a time. but i love i got the links for other blogs in order now. see, how expert i am in distracting myself from my real obligation..... hmmm

Sunday, January 3, 2010

when i finally open the winword

yup, two third of my holiday has passed without warning

and for the umpteenth time, today too i've thought of starting to work on the mountain of school works. somehow it just yet to happen. but today, i opened the winword.

good news? however, it turned out instead of doing the report in which one of them i have to hand in by next week, i thoughtlessly did a translation for a song. it's just because the song is really engaging to me in a way. well, at first i was indeed misled but later when i further listened to it, i broke into a big laugh. such sly lyrics ryuuta had done (u've figured it, it's none other but 'their' song). but, as i had said previously, i'm working on my nihongo too, so this just might be good for that purpose. hehehe (a self-justification in vain). coz this is part of my flumpool fandom, i guess putting in on livejournal is more appropriate, the done work can be seen here. <--hehe, it's not like today's post is unusually short, it's because the long text all goes over there.

before the night went late, i've promised a friend of mine to start those burdening homework by tomorrow morning at least. and it's now past midnight, any chance of waking up early?

absolutely wanna watch 'the imaginarium of dr. parnassus' soon....

Saturday, January 2, 2010

unutterable ecstasy (sunk in flumpool love again)

usually i'll just oversleep up till afternoon when holiday is concerned, but today, my sleep was not as sound as i often have. even strange dreams appeared-all related to what i was anticipating for the day. in one of dreams, i was stupefied when the delivery i was waiting for reached my mom's hands first, the thoughts alone enough to horrify me. owing to that, i ended up waking up quite early this morning and rare enough, an early shower though no plan was made for the day.

and the whole morning passed with me getting all jittery. i thought of reading the new book i just got yesterday, but my eyes keep on staring the monitor displaying the live feed of the cctv of which one of it showing the front of our house. at last, i found some use of these cctv coz i really didn't like that idea at the beginning. it's just nonsense somehow to put cameras, it's not like we're some museums or whatever.

while my eyes were off somewhere else, suddenly i was startled by the sound of a horn. waa!! finally, i caught sight of the yellow van i've been expecting~~ after all this long, my waiting is over!! so, tadaa~!! here's the item that unluckily got delayed from reaching my very two hands for a few days but i am now more than happy that it has safely arrived after all.

'what's flumpool!?' (yosh, my 1st own cd i ever bought)

the whole contents (so ecstatic when i saw it's in fact the first press one)

aside from this long-awaited cd, my flumpool fever is escalated with the purchase of pati-pati january '10 issue the previous day. as always, they give out posters but little did i imagine they would do on 'ryuuta' alone. though i doubt i would dare sticking it on the wall but just looking at it is enough to make me blissful.

this is truly one good shot of him

and what more, for this issue, this is the photo shoot that seiji mentioned in one of his blog entries where a cat just suddenly popped in the scene(i've stated abt this in my previous post). just like he said, it's just too cute~~ but funny to see how the cat just find its place comfortably in the photo. acting so high and almighty yet seems shy with two eyes closed like that-perhaps this is only due to the blinding flash.

and the cat says : "oh, i'm so embarassed!"

well, it seems like my nihongo practice will have an extra booster with all these extra material to be read, more interesting than those physics/chem works i have on the other side here XD. like how my work space is so full with all these flumpool stuff, my mind is so occupied with them, i might have to wait a while before getting ready for the mind-boggling school works. wish me luck in completing them all.

and oh yea, 'sherlock holmes' was a pretty interesting watch too. there adds the source of my total happiness today. やった!

Friday, January 1, 2010

20th gregorian new year of my life

huhuhu, seems like 2010 would be the year where i have to say goodbye to my teens age.

however, even when the calendars's changing but i pretty much don't feel a thing. aside from the diminutive fear of the coming final that is drawing nearer and nearer.

but certainly today is a delightful one. at the moment, i'm so happy i'm grinning so wide it might ache sooner or later. though it was not exactly like what we initially planned, but i still got to watch 'cirque the freak: the vampire's assistant' after all. i've been looking forward to this for weeks before it's released(which is yesterday). so to get to watch it today made me in sheer bliss. thanks faseeha for watching it together with me! at first, the plan was to watch together with others (rifqi and izmier) but sudden circumstance didn't allow them to. to sum up the story, it was really a nice one. adequate suspense and actions, pleasing to the eyes. i was genuinely expecting for more but then it had already reached the end. this might be the 1st installment to the series so i guess it's not wrong to think the sequel will come soon. and i'll definitely will catch it the moment they show it on!

but frankly, if they titled it as 'darren shan' instead, it will do far from taking my interest in it. somehow the name have some repelling power to me, i didn't even turn my head when i came across the book with that very name. so, i guess the movie had really done a good job! especially love it with their effective casts and storyline that does arouse my interest and keeps it retained. i'm originally is a fantasy genre fan, so this just suits my taste.

talking about fantasy, another thing that made me in full bliss today is i could get a hold of a new book from terry pratchett, the one titled 'nation'. what more, when i already in anxiety for i had spent so much, Jaja-my lovely friend whom i just planned to meet on impulse after watching the movie, she just said "it's my treat!". I LOVE HER!! she really spared me from misery.


honestly, for the past few days, money has been flowing out like water, so fast i fear i couldn't stop this madness. for the singapore trip alone, though it was truly a budget one, still i had to withdraw a lump sum of money-for a mere student such as me. and also on the way back from jb, i happened to find a fabulous blouse i just got to get it-though it was on sale but it's still quite a price. and i was also caught by a sudden rare craving when i saw the baskin robbin's outlet-one that could only be satiated once i bought a cone of double-scoop of the mouth-watering ice-creams.

and another thing that i just pleasurably spent money on was the magazine featuring flumpool~! :D ahh, this addiction just never ceases. thankfully though i now have to make a serious effort in reading and understanding the interviews and all, there are generous people translating it on the net, so i could compare my own understanding and the ones it really means. and i'm so pleased to see those photoshoots, they just looks so adorable and irresistible. moreover, i once read the blog by seiji where he told an account about an interview they had when there was a cat suddenly pop in the scene. and this is the exact issue he was talking about. the cat looks so comfortable in the picture, acting so haughtily as if the photo shoot was centering on it. it's understandable why seiji was so lively in that blog entry of his. he's a cat-lover at heart, so he can't help but getting excited over that. the same way my eyes got bright and shiny whenever the the topic of flumpool is concerned. XP

and yeah, definitely, getting so impatience for tomorrow, finally 'what's flumpool' gonna reach these two hands of mine! hope everything will go well :D


and oh yeah, happy becoming 23, my sis!! ngahaha, if you're gonna follow our big sis, you'll get married by next year lah!

going abroad?

so, where to start?

actually my trip to JB was quite on impulse, or maybe not really so coz it was decided a week beforehand, but the one day travel to Singapore was really a plan on a sudden. once i heard of the idea, i can't help but to get excited over it.

along the 19 years that i've lived, to visit this country neighbouring to mine was the complete first time.

and the plan of what 5 of us(me and my sis and 3 cousins of mine) were going to do over there was made the night before our leave. well, b4 that, what i've ever known about singapore is pretty much only their changi airport. or perhaps i've heard the word 'jurong' when i watched phua chu kang or sth but not even a single idea of what kind of place that may be. to research about the tourist attraction hours before you are going sure makes you indecisive. what more, our budget is sooo limited.

initial plan: snow city(apparently located in jurong) as well as sentosa island

and what happened the next day : we only stepped in singapore when it had reached noon. and we're supposed to be back by dusk.

the revised plan : to just spend the whole day in sentosa, specifically the place they call 'imbiah' coz here lies most of the attractions. and little did we expect of how much the people would flock the place. perhaps we've forgotten it's school holiday.

i could say most of our trip was filled with tremendous waiting. even before we reached the venue, we had to wait multiple times never it was short for each of them. wait for the custom clearing, wait for the bus, wait in the bus, wait in the queue for every attractions, and even from the beginning wait for one of us who forgot the passport at home. but it was nice that we accidentally used the bus after we first arrived to reach the harbourfront (the point b4 u enter sentosa). normally, one would use the mrt coz it's faster but this sorta miss we've done allowed us to sightsee singapore on the road. masyaallah, what a wonder. i mean, i would love to live in a city like that too (if you could just ignore the obvious living cost). i mean, it's sooo lovely and CLEAN. it's just tooo different from what we usually get to see over here. no need to say how organized it looks, u just feel nice in that kind of atmosphere. but somehow, my gut told me it looks sooo organized and uniformed i might eventually get insane if i look at the same sight all the time.

well, the high-end region sure is a different story. for that, no need to be in singapore, practically in any country, the rich never escapes making their residence looks ever more impressive to the point you might ponder as to how much is needed to maintain it even for a day. now, i'm dreaming living in one.

for the activities we did in sentosa, we managed to stick to the plan-the budget one. we rode on the 'luge'(slide+toboggan model originated in NZ-not that i know what toboggan is :P), watched 4D movie(use 3D glasses and they use physical stimuli to add on the experience) and also went in the cineblast (it's like a rollercoaster ride when u actually stay in one place). the sea of people was quite choking but we managed to had fun after all.

our lunch? biscuit and tuna and some breads brought from over here.

indeed there were apparently a lot of locals too for it was school holiday but i could see the abundance of tourists as well. b4, i always hear each time TA comes here, singapore is like their must-go destination. i wonder if nihonjin makes up their major tourists, there are even nihongo signs in singapore. if only the arabs come there often, there would at least be allocated prayer rooms to satiate the demand. now i got a clue how it would be travelling oversea-or nihon specifically coz the muslim community is so minor. we had to find a space-thankfully we found a quiet and a bit secluded one thanks to the help of one of their staff and just pray with our forehead touching the rocky floor. not that it was my first time but it was quite an experience.

and later in the day after we finished having fun at sentosa, on our journey back, my little adventure when searching for the mosque was quite a wacky one. not only it was already night where you naturally feel not as safe, we were also separated too having no clue where the other two-the big sisters had gone to. so, whatever it is, we think it's wiser to solat first right, so the remaining 3 of us, made our way crossing the streets (one thing i really hate is crossing streets), struggling to find a mosque which we though was only a few steps away but ended up to be at the end of the road. just imagine how 'cuak' we were to be stranded in the middle of the city, not even having to passport in case anything happens-we believe those important stuff are better be in our sisters' custody whose location are unknown. thankfully, technology served their purpose at the end.

lastly, we ended the journey by finally using the mrt on the way back to the customs and also buses later. now, i feel inferior when comparing their public transports to ours. in term of the train alone, obviously theirs are better, but one thing i admire is their stations. be it the mrt or bus stations, it's just so clean. no scattered litters or dirt that's just an eyesore. the roads are a joy to ride on too, not as bumpy as the usual you experience here. and also the system is smooth. it's more informative when it's written what's available and the timing and all. perhaps i'm being biased but punctuality does matter. and so far i've seen in a day, the ones in my sight have better manners. that's one thing you'll be so grateful of over here.

so, there goes my long-winded story of what i've seen and done for the day i've spent going abroad XP. singapore sure is one interesting country to visit and even more exciting if you got money to spend more on. there are so much more i want to do, even at the sentosa where i've gone gonna have further attractions to be completed in the future so there're more to look forward to. so, anyone wanna join for any future plan?

oh, happy new year! um, i just missed the first moon eclipse of the year about an hour ago