-it's that time again-

apparently, june marks the lowest entry count. well, a lot happened, but more often than not, it's either i'm too occupied with other things or simply the internet would not cooperate with me. the later just plain irritating.

happy birthday to the whole lot who were born in June. there're several cases i realize it's particular someone's birthday and badly i want to wish the person's concerned but got no chance doing it.

my sentences are getting ever more complicated.

oh, it's TOIEC this saturday. what a great thing if i were to get full mark. but mistakes are utterly inevitable.



and the title of this entry applies to what would happen in less than a fortnight away.

SEMESTER EXAM

with inadequate studying, chased by many other academical obligations and haunted by unavoidable worries.

may everything goes all right.............. ~amin~



p/s: i sense an increase in blog post very soon............

ついてる、ついてる

okay, amidst time like now, i really like to sing along the song 'Dear God' from 'avenged sevenfold'. well, for the reason it has such line like this:

"i'm lonely and TIRED~...."

ummmm, undeniably the current period we're enduring right now might be among the toughest times as a student in this so great program of JAD. with only less than 3 weeks away from the big and important final exam, yet the load of works never seems to be lighter even a bit. and due to own very fault, you didn't bother to equip yourself first with sufficient studying beforehand because having fun is more inviting to do, so you ended up panicking when it's only the eleventh hour. adding more to that, we have to worry about which university we should apply to ensure we would get the best of it, it's more agitating when the one of your choice does not seem to be approved by the sensei who believe there are another one meant for you.

to the point you want to say, perhaps you've reached own limit you have no strength left to take another step.

疲れた！！

is what i want to say, but somehow, it seems someone made me realise i better not say that aloud or even as a silent whisper. might be funny but according to him, it could mean another thing,

「憑かれたー」=possessed

see, if it's said too frequent, the later meaning might just come true....

and i learnt this:

疲れてても

「ついてるついてる＾＾」

って言うのがいいらしい。


-even if you're tired, better to say "i'm hanging on, hanging on"-

^-^

thanks Kawabe-kun!


and yes, Kawabe-kun, you look so smart in a suit there! XD *oh someone, would you make me happy giving me their upcoming new album due to be released by this August?*

craving for pasta satiated + marvellous days

 at last, after few weeks been craving for pasta, i finally have it for myself. yummy!

well, that was only the beginning of a blasting friday nite-the last nite i got chance spending time with goda-oniisan.

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oops, i think i got late reaction with that fact............

to be continued

the middle of the year, the middle of semester

so much of a good thing that the program i'm in now complies with the japan calendar, it just differs to most local universities, yeah, we're indeed NOT IN HOLIDAY.... in fact, we're really in the middle of the semester now

so, you can just imagine how bustling it is.. and just today, we had 2 tests.

not something i would like to talk about.

まあ、失敗は成功のもとでしょう。。。　

そして、洋平さんも言ったんじゃん、「あきらめたら、そこで試合終了」

ok, i should get my spirits up!

we went in the workshop this week. thank goodness it's not as hot as i thought. we haven't finished with the lathing, the rest will be completed by next week but i wonder do we have enough time for that... btw, it was funny when it just happened exactly the same like with the previous group as a friend of mine had told me, to see our TA so restless waiting for our sensei.

and someone made me very happy in the middle of the week too. never thought he would do that far just for us. that was so kind of him to remember about us and send stuff all the way from there. that just adds more to the gratitude i'm owing him now. how i wish i can already fly over there and see all these wonderful people~

for university fair tomorrow, i'm wishing everything to go well, really hope i could gather all the information i need, like sensei said, this is our sole chance of having direct interaction with people of our prospective universities. nihongo jouzu ni shaberaremasuyouni.....

and something relating to origami gave me a giggle today XP people can be so cute sometimes~

the passing days (photos updated!)

seems like this month my entry count is a lil bit less than usual but it doesn't mean nothing much is going on, in contrast there's a lot of stuff that i got my hands tied. but amidst that, there're also some happy and unexpected days~
like how we ended up touring KL

getting butterfly on my finger

and saw schools of fishes and lots of other creatures at aquaria

feasting on a scrumptylicious ice-cream

riding on the rollercoaster which was totally out of plan

buying a new blouse totally way above my regular price range

simple daily surprises such as having naan as lunch

or getting our circuit working after numbers of times it had failed

missed our bus home and hitched a ride on our beloved sensei's car, and he treated us for cheezy wedges

the 30seconds trailer of flumpool's new song (gosh, how  i want that upcoming single sooo much)


or the sudden development of the drama i've been watching

or reading some blog posts that just touch my heart(as explained here)



okay, supposedly the most of the above are only captions for photos i intend to put up there but the internet just won't be nice to me from the day before yesterday when i first wrote this post. so, whenever condition allows it, i'll rethink on updating this again.
photos updated!!

but yeah, thanks to a whole lot of people who just make my life brighter. everyday is full of challenges, bearing it with all the sweet memories, we all can make it through together~


p/s: this blog somehow is like a rollercoaster ride

turbulent

point 1:

so many things have broken, literally and metaphorically. due to the overwhelming works we have, it has gone past my physical limit and so does my mental limit and i'm still trying my best to strain myself to last each day. too many stuff to cram in my head, my patience has no more to spare. to say honestly, maybe it's not too much, perhaps it's just me who's so stupid to utilise my time. facing that truth, my spirit breaks yet again. the condition of the house which need repairs and has long not mended till now, i'm irritated and no one just cares.

point 2:

to learn and to learn, you've immersed into the deeper world of unknown. to know more means to discover the whole lot bigger counterpart of what you don't know. sometimes i wonder just how oblivious i am, i'm practically the same as knowing nothing. well, people say ignorance is bliss, but isn't it frustrating? so often to be buckled with the sense of insecurity, like at any moment you could just disappear and perish just because you know absolutely nothing. yet to know how the world works, yet to know how to make a mark on this world, yet to know a whole lot of other things.

point 3:

i'm clueless about a species called 'homo sapien'. if only we can check the meter of humans' feeling like in analog meter or digital ones. it's too much a puzzle, figuring it out has become an endless game. i prefer not it can just be read like a book, words are confusing just the same. to reach and connect and to understand is just so damn hard. to sincerely say out loud of what's in the head can hardly be actually done. too afraid, too scared of the plausible unwanted outcome. or is it simply coz i'm just damn selfish? when i thought i'm thinking about others, it's only about me in the end. yeah, the reckless me. never i am the altruist coz i'm a narcissist.



perhaps, i'm being ungrateful, only ungrateful people complain. nonetheless to have so much questions in life is just part of being human, isn't it?

-done spewing out part of what has been held in by far, proceeding to sleep therapy-

snapped!

not totally in a good mood

jaa!

lethargic-happy-voiceless

okay, the third one was near lie. i still got my voice but it's nowhere near my normal voice.

hayaku naorimasuyouni

too much to say yet i don't know how to put it.

and this sleepiness kicks in too hard, i'm hoping i can be genki soon. (oh my, i'm losing the words, i'm mixing whatever in my head now)

briefly, there's so much people that have my gratitude at this moment, yes, i'm so damn happy

despite the exhausting days we have to go through. undoubtedly, no one can escape from being fatigue at this rate.



jaa, will be updating soon where the conditions are more favourable.

THANKS A LOTTT! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! real life can be so delightful at times~~