forget or just ...

despite my previous post, what i did totally contradict to wht i meant to brace myself to.

i intended to cut down my expenditure and save aside as much as i could. the most important is to avoid purchasing product which could lead to my muslim sisters and brothers demises-u know what i mean. however, for the last few days, i spent much more than i usually do. up to now, i've used more than half of my scholarship for the month and it hasn;t even been 15th of january yet. oh my... finance management : failed

from now until my Final exam, only 35 days left (i guess) and i sure did not make full use of the time i got before. on top of that, now that i've found a new obsession, i would waste much of my time to feed it. hazardous happiness i could say? hahaha.... talking about my studies, my motivation fades and i no longer have the same enthuasism towards it like i had before. i wonder why? i know i had no choice but to do it, but i just don't want to do it, the interest is just barely there anymore. this seems so chronic now... now, what should i do to fix this?

just another meaningless rambles

wanna shop?

imported products just seem so good, aren;t they. but be careful, the quality might be good for you, but the rise in their sale might means someone else's demise....

mostly the above products are USA's but here we can get them too. i admit i just like some of them and a loyal customer but now...

n more of them you should know here: http://home.pacbell.net/halnet/Boycott%20Israeli%20Products%20Campaign.htm

it's true that we heavily depend on some of these but where's the harm in opting the others when you have the choice. instead of danone's bliss yoghurt drink, how about sunglo's lassi(malaysian product ma). instead of nestle's koko krunch, how about nasi lemak for breakfast?you might think this little thing won't deter them, but when it's done collectively, it might just lead a big change. so, opt for others as far as you could.

...gosh, just the day b4 yesterday i shopped at carrefour n spent almost 100 there. astaghfirullah. yea, we just forget sometimes...

so, the next time u shop, use the power of the consumer and choose. u can do nothing what had been done. it'll be stupid to throw away those you already possess because of this coz that would lead to waste-another sin commited. to compensate that, help others too to make their choice in purchasing stuff. ne? we might not have the chance to fight in the warzone, but we certainly can help to weaken the enemies, dun give them the money to buy the bombs!

where it supposed to be...

when the school reopened last monday after my cherished 2weeks holiday, slowly irritation built up inside me. school just makes you feel stressed, doesn't it? little by little i felt uneasy and unrest. everything just not right. so, to cool it down, i've thought of spending for leisure. i mean, by not refraining myself to get anything i want. it didn't take me long to do that. just for lunch alone, a spent as much as i usually spend for 2-3 meals altogether. hehehe.

then something resurfaced in my mind.

ever heard of the story of the conversation between RM1 note and RM100 note? here, i'll retell from my own memory and some plausible add-ons


RM100 : hi, long time no see. such a coincidence, we meet again.

RM1 : yeah, the first time we met was years ago.

RM100 : true, and from there. it's an adventure. i've gone to many places. i've travelled to numerous shopping complexes, famous restaurants, bars, cinemas and more. i've seen so many things as the exchange for me, elegant clothes, designer shoes, high tech devices and the even smell from the flashy bottle perfume still faintly stick on me. it was exciting. how about you?

RM1 : i'm happy too. every place i go, the person who receives me would smile. i've gone to plenty of beggars, cheerful children, and mostly i would be put into boxes in mosques or those for orphans and the poors. they are the best i guess, they made sure i'm not lost among the others.



get the story? it hit me hard too. to think how miniscule the portion i used from what Allah had granted me to help the others. i live so comfortable now but when it comes to donation, i spent so little from it. i'd rather enjoy it on things i like. so, now, my friends, it's never too late to change our attitudes. there's abundant of others who need the money more than us. the war victims greatly and desperately need them more than us. they're bleeding while we're idling and wasting what we took for granted here. hesitate not when you see boxes like this. you won't be at any loss. in fact, you'll enjoy from what you give later. if you don't believe me, at least, believe in Allah, our creator.

this box is part in the campaign "satu tabung satu keluarga" by Aman Palestin organization. i got it during a program on awareness towards palestine issue. when it is full, we can always return it to them and get a new one to continue for this cause. well, even if you do not have one such as this at home, you can always make one. use any empty box or can and make sure you fill it as frequent as you can, i mean, when you feel you have that extra money at hand. or even when u feel happy, insert some of what you have, so you can make others happy too, see, the happiness spreads. imagine how your contribution no matter how small-better if it's big, can make their suffering lessen even for a bit. when your donation could be used to buy medicines to treat dying fighters and their children. how you can make them happy to live for one more day-aided by your help that is.

mine at home is still so light. i wonder when it will actually be filled to a brim......

in addition, regarding palestine, i extracted this from others' blog. so, be cautious my brothers and sisters!

Fatwa Dr. Yusuf Qardhawi: ” 1 Rial (Ringgit) Untuk Produk AS, Sama Dengan Satu Peluru Untuk Tubuh Saudaramu di Palestine”
source: http://masturamohdyusuf.blogspot.com/2009/01/ya-allah-selamatkan-palestin.html

what can i do for now

Terkini : Zionis Israel guna fosforus putih yang diharamkan. - 07-Jan-2009
Haneyya : Kesal negara Arab masih merujuk kepada UN. - 07-Jan-2009
Terkini : 10 tentera rejim Zionis mati , 30 cedera di tangan Brigade Qassam. - 06-Jan-2009
Zionis-Israel Bakal Menerima Kejutan. - 06-Jan-2009

a wake up call
for us who are still in a loll
countless had perished
while we enjoy in lavish
drunk in joy and laughter
all they could do is to suffer
pelting bombs, splattering blood
staining their homeland of every part
so, why the hell am i idling here?
to get more aggravating news to my ears?
my brothers and sisters are fighting and dying
in the midst of this endless conflict, they are struggling,
ya Allah, grant them strength, grant them power
to fight every heartless soldiers that they encounter
let the victory be finally in their hands
as they have given their might to see all of these end
my prayers will always be by their side
may they retrieve what had forever been their right
the sacred land of palestine....


while wondering just what i can do here, to alleaviate even a lil bit of their pain, to at least care, i came upon these:

• http://iniceritakita.wordpress.com/2009/01/04/from-japan-to-palestine/
  
• "Bagi mereka yang sebaya dengan aku, belajar merupakan jihad utama yang dapat dilakukan bagi membuktikan kita 'kisah' dengan keadaan saudara kita di Palestin..Mungkin kita tak dapat untuk menyumbang secara langsung sekarang. Namun, kegigihan kita sebagai seorang pelajar bagi mendapatkan ilmu dapat dibayangkan sebagai suatu persediaan atau senjata rahsia untuk kita menyumbang pada masa hadapan." an excerpt from http://afiqjenoba.blogspot.com/2009/01/friendster.html
  
• http://palestinkini.info/?p=2815
  
• http://akuadalahakusentiasa.blogspot.com/2009/01/mari-kita-renungkan.html
  
• and also reminded by the 'tabung' from aman palestin which has been waiting to be filled on my dining table
  

minna, ganbarou~! put our hearts together!

astaghfirullah

shame on me, what an ignorant human i am.

i didn't even realize what in earth had happened on the other part on this world. what a cruel things have been done to my own brothers and sisters in islam. it tooks me days to get the news to be in my knowledge. again, what an ignorant human i am.

ya allah, save palestin. save the people of palestin. save my brothers and sisters.


......i just complained of how uncomfortable my bed is while those people do not even have bed to sleep on or even the chance to before they are put to sleep.

......i enjoyed listening to the music playing in my ears while those people are in fear threatened by the sound of bombs coming to their shelters

time for stories...

yeah i haven't been updating for a few days, nearly a week. well, typical reason-lazy.

last week, sadly but expected, i didn't even touch my homeworks which made me so desperate to complete them in these last few days of holiday. bad me. so, i had done for the last week? mainly watching dorama and sleep. hahaha. but i guess, there are few interesting things.

during dec 25th, my cousin engaged. the interesting thing? from the man's side(us), we went to the girl's house for the ceremony in a convoy of 11 cars. hahaha. tht's only the engagement ceremony. i tried to imagine their wedding in the coming july. the guest list seemed to be unending. with their family is a renowned caterer who definitely got so many acquantainces(do i spell this right?). but, the irony here is, while this cousin of mine was having the engagement, my sister who is of the same age as him had already done with the 'akad' hours earlier. hahaha.

the next day, due to plain boredom, when i was surfing the net, my bro suddenly asked to see the schedule for the movies at tgv, the mines. it was 4 then. what we saw was that 'the spirit' would be showing at 4.45. know the comic 'the spirit' from marvel comics? i didn't. well, we just went there anyway. imagine how i rushly took a shower and changed clothes. as usual, in the car, my bro cursed a lot. anyway, we made it on time. thank god. all i would say is 'it's quite an interesting movie'. i noticed that i like it when the story is told from 1st point of view. it somehow makes it more personal. so, the superhero of the story, 'the spirit' managed to made me enjoy it. what attracted me along the story was how the his shoe appears white while it is obviously actually black. interesting~. (dun understand, watch it urself)

and, the next day. i went out for a movie again! this time, it was the movie i've been waiting from before since i saw the advertisement by the road. it starred adam sandler-one of my favourite actors. the title? bedtime stories. what more was it's a Walt Disney's movie. i luv stories like this. i'm so relieved i need not to wait until jan 1st for the official release of the movie in the cinema. we watched the sneak preview. so glad, there was actually a friend of mine who is free enough and intersted to accompany me watching this one. thanks Aishah! oh, and also Jaja, who only arrived at the cineplex 10 minutes after it started. if she really didn't turn up that day, i think i would hit her hard enough to make her unconcious the next time i see her.
my comment for this movie? FABULOUS!! funny and hilarious! i dun regret treating my friend for this one. it was truly enjoyable. um, i'm a bad movie reviewer, i guess. :P


look at bugsy's eyes!

after the movie, jaja suddenly had to head home leaving me and Aishah. we window shopped the whole klcc for 3 hours until it was time for her to return. i guess i really love doing these kinds of things. hahaha.

oh, it didn;t stop there, when we had parted ways, on the way home, i stopped at midvalley station. i went to the gardens. if only kinokuniya had what i wanted, i need not to go here. thank god, when i already at the gardens with tired legs and entered Borders, a book i had been searching for was there. Alhamdulillah~. Borders really arrange their books systematically. it took me less than 5 minutes to find terry pratchett's 'the wee free men'. the bookstore was quite the same everywhere, i mean the borders' bookstores. when i went to one of them at pittsburgh, it's the same smell, the same signs-the colours and all, the same style. not bad. only bad for my pocket if i stayed there longer i think.

back at home, despite had promised to myself to do things of higher priorities-homework, i immerse myself in more doramas afterwards. remind me of my weak self. i finished watching 'iryu' 1st season. not only that, i found another dorama so appealing, i actually waited for it to load (this one is streamed video). now i crave for more episodes of it. astaghfirullah..... oh yea it's titled 'tiger and dragon'. a interesting story revolving a yakuza and rakugo.

so, for these remaining days, i really hope i could finish my homeworks..?

ambivalent emotions

ok, i'm learning things in scientific way-duh~ i'm taking engineering, so the science way is being direct. so today, without long-winded entries, i resorted to bullets

• in the past 2 and half days, i finished watching 3 dorama series
  -Attention Please
  -Akihabara@Deep
  -GTO
• yeah, i'm quite pleased watching the ikemen in those doramas
• my interest in japanese actors raised up again. gosh, can't just resist their hotness. they made my day. thank you Ikuta Toma. thank you Oguri Shun. thank you Nishikido Ryou
• really find it amusing to watch Oguri Shun i like in GTO. he was so small then. :D
  


• in short, I'M HAPPY.
• yesterday, my sis called. her wedding reception is planned to be in feb '11. after i finished my diploma her and b4 flying to nihon (really2 i wish i pass, insyaallah) yea, i already knew her partner b4. he's nice. but then, i'm not gonna be there on the day they gonna tie their relationship-the legal way. it's less than 24 hour now. (oh, sorry sis, it's spilled here)
• I'M SHOCKED
• actually, i want to go out somewhere just to hang out but no friend. yesterday my bro handed his phone which contained the sim card i was using. my friend did give me a msg inviting me to go out. it's dated on last sunday
• I'M FRUSTRATED
• everyone knows i love chocolate. when my bro returned recently, it's a shame he didn;t returned along with him a lot of chocolates like i had anticipated. a really stingy person. but then, this morning, my friend contacted me asking me if i want to order any chocolate now he's at Langkawi. yea, i ordered all i like.
• I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO IT -oh my fuel.
• the internet in my home is ridiculously slow. it has been 5 days but my final episode of ryuusei of kizuna is not done yet.
• I'M COMPLETELY IRRITATED
• i still haven't touched my assignment at all yet
• I'M .................................................................

jaa, anyone? let's go out! anywhere interesting, like watching movie. i prefer if it's not midvalley-getting sick of that super-crowded place. oh yea, this dec 31st a new walt disney movie starring adam sandler gonna be out at cinemas. definitely want to watch it~! so, anyone?

ukhuwah blooms

last saturday, i sort of had a reunion with the alumni of my ex-school which i attended for 9 long years. well, i was kinda looking forward to it since i haven't been hearing news form them for such a long time. i left the school when i entered form4 and so i only keep in contact with a few of them. the event was scheduled to be on the morning. thanks to my mother, she sent me there along with Wana who i fetched from her home.



i was really delighted to meet my old friends again, though not so much were there but still, i was happy. for my batch, there were Wana(yeah, we came together), Fatin, Khairiah, Ruqayyah, Farha, Syafiqah, Wafda, Sarah(she lives there) and some other boys. we are all scattered now, some can;t even make it coz they're now oversea. huhuhu. so, we had a bit of minisports, playing a bit. the event went okay i guess until the end, just that the attendance were below expectation. well, there's just a thing that bothered me till now, on that day, i didn't get a chance to ask the boys how they are doing. it's not like i didn't want to, it just seemed awkward, in that circumstance. gomen ne. so, next time, i hope i really could getting in touch with them. we were classmates afterall. i think that's all, for the rest, though there could be more room for improvement, i can see they've given their best.




in all these pix, my tudung seems to be badly crooked. kakkowarui naa

oh talking about the boys, i surfed around and found their blogs, active bloggers they are. and i found a really intriguing post from one of them. here take a look http://jaqslife.blogspot.com/2008/12/why-science-fail-to-explain-god.html

btw, i've updated the links to other blog so that they can be reached to these wonderful people

あのね、あの日はとてもよかったのに、しかし、今はとてもいらいらするんだよ。金曜日から、流星の絆のドラマをぜひ見たいけど、いままで、できないんだ。どうしてこのインターネットはすっごくおそいなあ？？もう二日間もdownloadはまだおわっていない。。困るんだ。。。