while i know i'll feel so bad later

dun mind anything, this entry is still posted despite the circumstance where i shouldn't even be thinking of getting near my beloved notebook, but still i do

well, i guess it's all in the mind. currently i feel so down coz tomorrow is the paper which subject i really a have a problem in. approximately, of the whole class we had, my understanding only covers 35% of it, and my mastery is even lower than that. owing to that, of course i'm panicking now. tachibana-sensei, i'm sorry....

but, when i think again, panicking won't do me anything. it's just panic.

so, i went to cheer myself up by getting a lot of flumpool inputs. well, that surely bring a lot of smiles onto my face.oh my, i can't help but getting myself adoring them more and more. never thought i would be such a staunch fan. hmmm, fangirling again.... (izzati, u understand me the most in this matter). however, when watching this one interview on them, i feel kinda sad for not being able to fully understand the whole heated up conversation. i guess i should work out more on my nihongo. mada mada dakara naa...

oh, and today, i actually learnt a lesson: trust your first instinct! dun copy others!

hahaha, i actually copied my friend's answer after being so inconfident with mine. if only i could trust myself more. it turned out that all my copied answers are wrong while the unwritten answers, floating in my head are actually the correct ones.

so, no copying again, ok! honestly, this is one of my rare cases of copying........

jaa, i guess i better get going and keep my spirit up. there are only few hours remaining that i could use to actually get as much as i can to cram in my head and vomit it out tomorrow on the answer sheet....

ya allah, please, at least let me pass this paper.. as for the other subjects, give me strength, more than ever before, i really need those now.........